101 days
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Join Date: May 2012
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101 days
I'm sober 101 days and it seems that was the easy part.
Just in the last few weeks I've had to find new ways to deal with stress and feelings, and I'm not exactly proud of how I've done it. Primarily yelling and procrastination. But not drinking.
I'm not really going to meetings, I feel really nervous about walking into the rooms. I've read the Big Book and the 12 and 12. I'm in Graduate school and pretty regularly stressed out, and beginning to wonder if I need to take a break from school and just do a lot less. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern, just kind if hanging on but without an idea of where I'm trying to get to.
Don't really know where to turn for help and guidance, I'm on my own so far, with the exception of a few close friends in recovery who I talk to by phone.
Feeling rather overwhelmed by the mess I've made and I think that shame is keeping me home alone instead of being with others in fellowship.
I don't want to drink but it's becoming glaringly apparent that I really have no idea how to cope without it. I'm fumbling along but I could sure use your experience, hope and strength.
Thank you and bless you.
Just in the last few weeks I've had to find new ways to deal with stress and feelings, and I'm not exactly proud of how I've done it. Primarily yelling and procrastination. But not drinking.
I'm not really going to meetings, I feel really nervous about walking into the rooms. I've read the Big Book and the 12 and 12. I'm in Graduate school and pretty regularly stressed out, and beginning to wonder if I need to take a break from school and just do a lot less. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern, just kind if hanging on but without an idea of where I'm trying to get to.
Don't really know where to turn for help and guidance, I'm on my own so far, with the exception of a few close friends in recovery who I talk to by phone.
Feeling rather overwhelmed by the mess I've made and I think that shame is keeping me home alone instead of being with others in fellowship.
I don't want to drink but it's becoming glaringly apparent that I really have no idea how to cope without it. I'm fumbling along but I could sure use your experience, hope and strength.
Thank you and bless you.
~sb
Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: MD
Posts: 15,960
When you really want help, those meetings are available. The steps are waiting for you, too. Those steps saved my life. A sponsor can help guide you through the steps, which will help you with a change in perception. When I am at a meeting, I am with a group of people willing to help others who understand what I am going through.
If your friends are in recovery, are they working a program of recovery?
Glad you are sober!
If your friends are in recovery, are they working a program of recovery?
Glad you are sober!
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It sounds like you are very aware of what's happening with your feelings and that's good. Congratulations on your sober time!
For me, I did have to cut down things in my life and make sure I had plenty of 'me' time. I still need quiet time with myself on a regular basis and if I do too much the stress kicks in.
You can find ways to deal with this. Meditation is really helpful and worth spending time on. Journalling can also be very helpful to clear up your emotions. And, of course, some kind of exercise would be good.
For me, I did have to cut down things in my life and make sure I had plenty of 'me' time. I still need quiet time with myself on a regular basis and if I do too much the stress kicks in.
You can find ways to deal with this. Meditation is really helpful and worth spending time on. Journalling can also be very helpful to clear up your emotions. And, of course, some kind of exercise would be good.
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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Congrats on 101 days, Abierto! Like you've realized, sobriety doesn't make the rest of life's stressors mysteriously disappear. In fact, at first, they may seem insurmountable. But, with continued sobriety, life once again becomes manageable. Keep with it, it's worth it!
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