Do i need to be here...
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Posts: 1,226
Originally Posted by Beerbottles 
Yeah that's true.. Im only shy because I care so damn much about what everyone thinks of me and do not have the balls to rock up to a function without drinks in my system as my armor
I would prefer for people to see me sober. My guess is I wasn't foolin' anyone with liquid courage. :-)
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Join Date: May 2012
Posts: 94
So true, deep down I think I knew that with the shifty eyes, teeth brushing dodgy behavior and constantly asking hubby the next day if he loved me..
If there a thread on here where you check in or just keep posting here when needed?
If there a thread on here where you check in or just keep posting here when needed?
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: Between Meetings
Posts: 8,997
Originally Posted by Beerbottles
If there a thread on here where you check in or just keep posting here when needed?
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,780
Welcome to the family! :ghug3 As to your question about doing it without AA - I'm sober over two years now with the help of my weekly counseling visits and daily visits to this site.
I have no desire to drink anymore at all.
Wishing you the best on your sober journey.
I have no desire to drink anymore at all. Wishing you the best on your sober journey.
Spiritual Learner
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Chicago, Illinois
Posts: 165
God Bless you for telling on yourself!
"Every time I do it which is only about once a month these days when my daughter is with grandparents, I feel so guilty the next day.. In fact I can't even have a sip of alcohol without feeling guilty...I dont do anything sill, i haven't caused relationship issues, harm to myself or my child - the only issue is i hide how much im drinking and feel terribly guilty the next day" --- no-one can classify you as an alcoholic because you have to do that yourself, but there are different bottoms, some lose everything (family, job, friends, etc...) before asking for help, some can recognize a problem early. Not everybody has to lose everything some have "those" feelings that something is wrong and they act on that and get help. Alcoholism is a disease that needs to be addressed or it will keep growing until it consumes you and your family! You can go to an open meeting and see how you feel about it- you don't necessary have to tell anything to your family right away until you get a better understanding of this yourself! 12 step programs are anonymous for a reason.
Yes there a different ways to get sober but I have found A.A. was right for me, it is normal to have those feelings but don't let them rule you or control you, but keep reaching for help and act on it. The fellowship is great and they won't judge you when you get ther they will welcome you with open arms! Keep coming back and hope you find your way! Gid Bless!
"Every time I do it which is only about once a month these days when my daughter is with grandparents, I feel so guilty the next day.. In fact I can't even have a sip of alcohol without feeling guilty...I dont do anything sill, i haven't caused relationship issues, harm to myself or my child - the only issue is i hide how much im drinking and feel terribly guilty the next day" --- no-one can classify you as an alcoholic because you have to do that yourself, but there are different bottoms, some lose everything (family, job, friends, etc...) before asking for help, some can recognize a problem early. Not everybody has to lose everything some have "those" feelings that something is wrong and they act on that and get help. Alcoholism is a disease that needs to be addressed or it will keep growing until it consumes you and your family! You can go to an open meeting and see how you feel about it- you don't necessary have to tell anything to your family right away until you get a better understanding of this yourself! 12 step programs are anonymous for a reason.
Yes there a different ways to get sober but I have found A.A. was right for me, it is normal to have those feelings but don't let them rule you or control you, but keep reaching for help and act on it. The fellowship is great and they won't judge you when you get ther they will welcome you with open arms! Keep coming back and hope you find your way! Gid Bless!
Self recovered Self discovered
Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Toronto Canada
Posts: 5,148
Welcome, BeerBottles, you have found a place full of great folks just like you who will listen, and share their experience, their strength and give you lots of hope.
Here are two things from this ex alcohol addict. Some of us make a big deal trying to answer the question - was I (am I) an alcoholic? I don't think this matters in the least. A better question is, Do I have a problem with alcohol and do I want to fix it? Ok, that's two questions, I know.
The second thing is that there are many ways to long term abstinence and sobriety, no matter where you start on your journey. AA is just one of them, there are others too. The important part is to decide that you want to fix this, you will fix this, and you won't stop until you do, because you are done with these feelings of guilt and shame, sick and tired let me tell ya.
Keep posting here, BeerBottles. We like seeing folks find a full life, one with peace inside, and joy in living without alcohol. Hope you can find yours because you deserve it.
Here are two things from this ex alcohol addict. Some of us make a big deal trying to answer the question - was I (am I) an alcoholic? I don't think this matters in the least. A better question is, Do I have a problem with alcohol and do I want to fix it? Ok, that's two questions, I know.
The second thing is that there are many ways to long term abstinence and sobriety, no matter where you start on your journey. AA is just one of them, there are others too. The important part is to decide that you want to fix this, you will fix this, and you won't stop until you do, because you are done with these feelings of guilt and shame, sick and tired let me tell ya.
Keep posting here, BeerBottles. We like seeing folks find a full life, one with peace inside, and joy in living without alcohol. Hope you can find yours because you deserve it.
sobriety date 5-2-12
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Midwest
Posts: 903
I can relate to your story. I am 36 and a wife and mother. In college I drank hard. Continued with weekend binge drinking until about age 22. I barely drank for the next 5 years or so bc I had 2 children and worked Friday and Saturday nights. When I did drink though (even if it was only once every six months) I got drunk. As my kids got older (now 10 and 13) and I stopped working weekends I was drinking 1-2 times a week and in the past 2 or 3 years getting wasted every weekend and hating my life. I also added in pain pills this past year. Anyway, even though I wasn't drinking every day my life had become unmanagable due to my drinking. I had a very scary drinking experience a week ago and am now back in AA.
My thoughts are with you, and welcome. This place is wonderful.
Ann
My thoughts are with you, and welcome. This place is wonderful.
Ann
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