sobriiestote

Just wondering?

I don't know if mine would be the worst drunk photo of myself I've ever seen, or a slug, or a spider, or a gremlin/leprechaun type thing???

Interested to hear what yours is and how it helps having a visual image?

Madruski

Some demon thing. Or just an image of me in the kitchen drinking.. It's seeing that image is motivational not to drink.

TroyW

Yeah, the night terrors during withdrawals helped conjure up some pretty nasty images of an AV.

Looks something along the lines of this, except about 8 times as tall, pops through the floor, and there's 100s of them, not just 1. That was a fun night terror.

BringingBackB

Troy - that just looks like me on a morning without my coffee.

I picture mine as some sort of green monster - the specifics change, but the generic slimey monster always seems to pop into my head.

Dee74

My inner addict, AV - call it what you will - looks and sounds exactly like me.
That's what makes it so dangerous.

D

DitzyDandelion

That is part of what is behind the signature pic I made Dee. Though on another level the second me is also drunk me. Not decided yet which of the two me's in there is me? Am I the darker more vivid one or the faded one?

Dee74

Maybe you'll be like me and rediscover a you that you forgot about Ditzy

D

PurpleKnight

The voice of "1 drink won't do any harm", "things will be different this time" or "you deserve a drink" . . . they all sound like me, they all sound reasonable and they all come from my own mind.

The biggest challenge for me was how do I know which thoughts do I listen to and which ones do I ignore, in isolation I went round in circles for a long time, but with a second opinion on things through having other people around me I had a fighting chance!!

Soberwolf

I like what D said

2WheelsGood

"My precious!!!"

blueberry2015

Yeah I see it as being that demon who turned me into the most uncontrollable verbally and physically abusive bitch troll from hell that has damaged my liver. Its not pretty. I NEVER want to be like that again... Im kicking its butt.

Venecia

Early on, I envisioned my AV as Mick Jagger singing "Sympathy for the Devil" to an audience of one: me.

As time went on, I grew to view my AV just the way Dee does. It is a part of me that I must work for a lifetime to keep relegated to a powerless place inside me lest I become my own worst enemy again.

And I've also come to like "Sympathy" again as the great song it is.

Nonsensical

It begs, it pleads, it reasons, it bargains, it threatens, it throws a fit when it can't have it's way.

But it has no real power.

DitzyDandelion

Mine had a tantrum earlier but I sharply told it something using words unsuited to the forum rules . It shut up then.

Foolsgold186

My AV is me in the worst possible instance. The needy, negative nightmare I am when I'm drunk!

letitgo

I think mine would look like 2 face from batman. My Joe camel cool self image on oneside. Relaxed and hip. The other half being a very sick, stressed and anxious person with a hand put for help (booze being the only thing to help). So half a cool looking me and the other half a gollum from Lord of the rings sick looking sense of myself. A very sad and depraved soul thinking he can get better by something that makes him his worst.

VDGS

Mine is like the most sparkly, radiant, ethereal, beautiful woman on Earth prior to and during the first drink or two. After that, the facade melts away into a bloodshot, haggard, angry, miserable fiend chastising me for everything I've ever done wrong and taunting me to drink more. Both are coming straight from my brain; both are dangerous and not worth messing around with. Happier being sober and letting those two go haunt someone else.

Upward2Enlightenment

Mine is me, a healthier and happier "looking" me. One not in pain every day, but that is a false image.

Wastinglife

I picture Hunter S Thompson when I think of my AV for some reason...

Fluffer

Something like Sid Vicious near the end...