nikkimarie

I have to work at 2 ..its almost 11 now...nursing a hangover as usual....thought about calling in sick but then I would definitely drink....I AM so sick of being sick....
I joined this site today...not sure how to use it yet

Sapling

Welcome nikkimarie. Looks like you are doing OK with the site so far...Don't drink today...And glad to have you with us.

least

Welcome to the family.:ghug3 Sobriety is worth the effort.

Chrisy

Welcome, you are in the right place. there are many good people here who will be able to help you through. I am on day 3 myself for oxycodone addcition. I have found so much support and wisdom on this forum, and know you will too.

Love and Blessings
Chrisy

nikkimarie

I dont know if I can do it..I am not a member of AA...been to scared to go and I really never wanted to stop drinking ....but it is becoming too big of a problem..I drank about 20 beer since monday and have been drinking before going to work....Im really scared...this is the first time I have openly admitted to anyone that I have a problem
thanks for the replies everyone

artsoul

Welcome nikkimarie!

It's a scary time and we know what you're going through. I didn't want to quit either, but knew things would get worse if I kept drinking. I'm glad you're reaching out today - we're here!!:ghug3

Chrisy

This is the first step to admit you are powerless over drugs or booze. That they control us and not us control our drug of choice. We can't stop on our own, we need support and being with people who have been through it and can help us and encourage us. You are in the right place.

Love and Blessings
Chrisy

BillyPilgrim

Hi Nikkimarie, best thing is to read posts, reply, join in.

We are all rooting for you

Billy

Jeni26

Hi and welcome. Great to have you with us.
Lots of fantastic support here and we all know exactly how you feel x

Newatthis34

Hi Nikki,
Posting on here is the first step. It was for me too, even though I'd been reading for a while once I began posting I realised I was facing up to my problems. I'm on day 17 and reading the stories here has been such a comfort and an inspiration. It will be for you too. Keeping posting. Be strong, we can get better!

Newatthis34

PS Check out AVRT if you're not interested in AA. That's the program I'm using.

gunther84

Hey Nikkimarie. I know how you feel. Most people here do. I know its hard but you just cant drink. If you continue to drink things will get worse. Use this forum and if you can, try to get to a AA meeting. There is nothing to be embarrassed about.

sugarbear1

Welcome! - Alcoholics Anonymous - Greater Toronto Area Intergroup

Call us: 416.487.5591
(Toll-Free: 1.877.404.5591 - within Ontario)

Call your local AA intergroup and ask any questions you may have. "Membership" means you have a desire to stop drinking. Ask where a meeting is and get there. You do need in person support and AA is free. You can always leave, if you need to. You can also just go to meet others in recovery and work another program, but in the beginning, AA can at least help you get started on staying stopped.

Do what is best for you. Hide your money and credit cards and don't buy any more! See a doctor if you need to.

You can stay stopped, too!

Nextchapter

Welcome Nikkimarie. I don't want to stop drinking either but it sucks me into an abyss where I can't see reality. I realize nothing is important except getting that next buzz. This past weekend I drank the time away so I took Monday off, cleaned my bedroom, changed the sheets and climbed in bed with a good book. Yesterday I left work and that's my toughest time so instead of stopping at the liquor store I ate a hamburger. Worked for me! I'm praying I get through today. Good luck to you!

nikkimarie

Thanks...I am looking forward to reading a book again...havent been able to ..Im always too drunk going to bed.....also looking forward to waking up and my first thoughts NOT being
1. just how hungover I am
2. how much time do I have and what steps I will have to take to get to work in a
half way decent state
3. did I fall or break something or blackout

eJoshua

Welcome to SR!

People recover from this stuff every day, and I know you can too. Getting sober has been the hardest and most rewarding thing I've ever done. I'm glad you found us!

InsertNameHere

Welcome Nikki,

Been there so many times. Glad to have you with us

Nextchapter

I could have said these exact words myself!

DisplacedGRITS

Hi nikkimarie. My advice to you is to just wor it minute by minute. Don't think about making it through the day or the week. Just each minute. It's less overwhelming and much more managable. I used to drink before work on a daily basis and lost my job because of it. I also loved to read but gave it up when i drank because i couldn't remember what i'd read, had double vision, passed out, couldn't concentrate or just lost interest. Now i'm devouring my books again and find them to be very helpful when i have a craving.

Give AA a chance. I was terrified when i first went. Damn near everyone is. We're not scary people. We do not judge. You are not a bad person getting good, you are a sick person getting well. AA is a safe place to be with people who have been there, done that and gotten the tee shirt. Twice. Don't compare your addiction to others. You addiction is your own. You are no better off or no worse than anyone else.

Welcome to SR. As far as how to use this site, i come here when i'm bored, craving, or just have a little spare time or can't make a meeting. I post here when i'm happy, confused, sad, whatever. Use this site for whatever you need. You'll find support, advice, compassion, love (sometime of the tough sort) and a wonderful community of understanding. Wherever you are, SR and the hand of recovery is here, you only have to reach out for it.

Dee74

Welcome nikkimarie

You'll find a lot of support here- and a lot of success stories...

you can do this

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