Relapse after 11 months....starting again
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Relapse after 11 months....starting again
Hi all,
I'm new here, been lurking a while and finally decided to join. I'm currently on day 3 of my new sobriety after falling off from 11 months of not drinking. I got complacent about my sobriety and my addict mind told me I "probably wasn't alcoholic after all." (This after handling a couple of drinks here and there without nearly killing myself....)
So I finally drank as I usually do (to blackout oblivion) was confronted about it and decided to stay drunk for two days out of spite and anger.
This place seems to be super supportive and I plan to participate here and utilize meetings so I don't "forget to remember" why I stopped drinking...and that yes, I am truly an alcoholic.
In case you're curious...I was an active alcoholic for 10 years. Started off drinking nightly almost right away (for sleep). Then a nightly blackout drinker onto a garden variety all day drunk. Tried to stop here and there which resulted in binges that landed me in the hospital a time or two.
The last 11 months prior to my 2 day binge (plus one month of kidding myself)have been my longest sober time in 11 years. I was very proud of that time, regret losing it but still value it because it taught me a lot about life and myself (just as my drinking has strangely). Now I will try again.
I'm new here, been lurking a while and finally decided to join. I'm currently on day 3 of my new sobriety after falling off from 11 months of not drinking. I got complacent about my sobriety and my addict mind told me I "probably wasn't alcoholic after all." (This after handling a couple of drinks here and there without nearly killing myself....)
So I finally drank as I usually do (to blackout oblivion) was confronted about it and decided to stay drunk for two days out of spite and anger.
This place seems to be super supportive and I plan to participate here and utilize meetings so I don't "forget to remember" why I stopped drinking...and that yes, I am truly an alcoholic.
In case you're curious...I was an active alcoholic for 10 years. Started off drinking nightly almost right away (for sleep). Then a nightly blackout drinker onto a garden variety all day drunk. Tried to stop here and there which resulted in binges that landed me in the hospital a time or two.
The last 11 months prior to my 2 day binge (plus one month of kidding myself)have been my longest sober time in 11 years. I was very proud of that time, regret losing it but still value it because it taught me a lot about life and myself (just as my drinking has strangely). Now I will try again.
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Originally Posted by YIQuit 
This place seems to be super supportive and I plan to participate here and utilize meetings so I don't "forget to remember" why I stopped drinking...and that yes, I am truly an alcoholic.
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Hi and Welcome,
Good for you for getting back at it and knowing that you need to stop drinking.
And, yes, I agree that we learn things about ourselves from each and every thing that we go through. I had no idea of the inner strength I had until I began recovery.
Good for you for getting back at it and knowing that you need to stop drinking.
And, yes, I agree that we learn things about ourselves from each and every thing that we go through. I had no idea of the inner strength I had until I began recovery.
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Thanks for the welcome replies.....
To Sapling...I was not sober through AA. I used prayer and family support. But I'm realizing that approach is too passive. I need to be working a program.
To Sapling...I was not sober through AA. I used prayer and family support. But I'm realizing that approach is too passive. I need to be working a program.
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Originally Posted by YIQuit
Thanks for the welcome replies.....
To Sapling...I was not sober through AA. I used prayer and family support. But I'm realizing that approach is too passive. I need to be working a program.
To Sapling...I was not sober through AA. I used prayer and family support. But I'm realizing that approach is too passive. I need to be working a program.
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Thank you Anna, artsoul and Sissy. Sapling, you're right God and family have seen me through A LOT. I just need to stay focused on my one day at a time instead of thinking "I got this thing under control."
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