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Hello, I'm new
Hello, I'm new to this forum and new to being sober 
I'm a binge drinker, I only drink at weekends (never during the week) but when I do drink......I have no limits. I drink until I pass out, lose all control over my thoughts, actions and behaviour. I shout abuse and say very bad things to the my friends, family, boyfriend. I start fights, I've slept with people I wouldn't normally. I've done worse things that I don't want to post on here too. Frankly, the drunk version of me is a disgusting, vile person.
Sober, without sounding big headed, I think I'm quite nice. I'm friendly, if a bit shy and reserved. I'm generally happy and my friends describe me as funny and laid back.
So why do I drink so much and become a monster? Part of the reason is that I can be quite shy in social situations. I first started drinking when I was about 16 or 17. Back then I was much shyer than what I am now. Drinking gave me confidence and allowed me to talk to people I didn't know without feeling anxious.
I've decided I want to give up drinking for a number of reasons. These are (in no order):
My health - I want to be fit and healthy for my own family, when I have one in the future
My dignity / reputation - no more falling over, starting fights, getting lost, being taken home by the police
Taste - Alcohol doesn't actually taste nice! I usually drink wine (two bottles at time), and guess what? I think it tastes disgusting, would rather have a coke any time.
Friends - I've lost a lot of friends through drinking. People don't want to associate with me. I'm a liability.
Family - I've had arguments with my family when drunk. Said things I don't mean. Called my boyfriend nasty names
Vulnerability - As a young woman, I've been in many situations where I've been very vulnerable. Once, I got lost, I roamed the streets in the middle of winter wearing nothing but a vest top and jeans (no shoes). Wondered into a strangers garden, fell over, stayed there for a bit. I'm lucky I've never been raped.
Career - I've been taken home by the police a few times when I'm drunk. I'm lucky I've never been arrested or locked up! Or done something that could send me to jail. I've attacked people before and I'm lucky they haven't phoned the police taken further action.
I don't want to upset my friends, family and boyfriend any more with my behaviour. I'm removing alcohol from my life, and for some time, I'm removing myself from social situations where I might drink (pubs, house parties etc).
Thanks for reading. I needed to get all that off my chest!
I'm a binge drinker, I only drink at weekends (never during the week) but when I do drink......I have no limits. I drink until I pass out, lose all control over my thoughts, actions and behaviour. I shout abuse and say very bad things to the my friends, family, boyfriend. I start fights, I've slept with people I wouldn't normally. I've done worse things that I don't want to post on here too. Frankly, the drunk version of me is a disgusting, vile person.Sober, without sounding big headed, I think I'm quite nice. I'm friendly, if a bit shy and reserved. I'm generally happy and my friends describe me as funny and laid back.
So why do I drink so much and become a monster? Part of the reason is that I can be quite shy in social situations. I first started drinking when I was about 16 or 17. Back then I was much shyer than what I am now. Drinking gave me confidence and allowed me to talk to people I didn't know without feeling anxious.
I've decided I want to give up drinking for a number of reasons. These are (in no order):
My health - I want to be fit and healthy for my own family, when I have one in the future
My dignity / reputation - no more falling over, starting fights, getting lost, being taken home by the police
Taste - Alcohol doesn't actually taste nice! I usually drink wine (two bottles at time), and guess what? I think it tastes disgusting, would rather have a coke any time.
Friends - I've lost a lot of friends through drinking. People don't want to associate with me. I'm a liability.
Family - I've had arguments with my family when drunk. Said things I don't mean. Called my boyfriend nasty names
Vulnerability - As a young woman, I've been in many situations where I've been very vulnerable. Once, I got lost, I roamed the streets in the middle of winter wearing nothing but a vest top and jeans (no shoes). Wondered into a strangers garden, fell over, stayed there for a bit. I'm lucky I've never been raped.
Career - I've been taken home by the police a few times when I'm drunk. I'm lucky I've never been arrested or locked up! Or done something that could send me to jail. I've attacked people before and I'm lucky they haven't phoned the police taken further action.
I don't want to upset my friends, family and boyfriend any more with my behaviour. I'm removing alcohol from my life, and for some time, I'm removing myself from social situations where I might drink (pubs, house parties etc).
Thanks for reading. I needed to get all that off my chest!
So it goes
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Manchester UK
Posts: 1,620
Originally Posted by sunandrain 
Sober,
My health
My dignity / reputation
Taste
Friends
Family
Vulnerability
Career
My health
My dignity / reputation
Taste
Friends
Family
Vulnerability
Career
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