tzivia

I'm going to my first meeting in two years tonight. I only went to 1 meeting ever before, and was too nervous to go back. I'm so shy, but I really want to get myself out of that. Geez, I'm 30, I shouldn't be this shy. I think it's really holding me back in life. Sadly the only thing that's helped with that has been alcohol, but I'm not doing that again.

I'm a little nervous about tonight, but I'm committed to going, so we'll see how it goes. I'm doing well with staying sober, 6 days so far, yeah! But I do think this will help also. I think the meeting tonight is a speaker meeting, so maybe that'll take the pressure of a little. I don't want to talk. It should be interesting.

Hope everyone here is doing well. Have a great night everyone, stay sober, and I'll be back on tomorrow.

Sapling

Kick back and enjoy it. Show up a little early and don't be afraid to introduce yourself as new. Nice people there. Let us know how it goes.

24hrsAday

remember nobody is any better than anyone else at A.A. we are all only one drink away from a drunk.

2granddaughters

Welcome to The Rooms !! It worked well for me ....

All the best.

Bob R

stairs

Hi,

I just came from a speaker meeting! Enjoy it. Plenty of shy people there.

Anna

Congratulations on 6 days sober and good luck with your meeting tonight.

Dee74

Hope you have a good meeting tzivia

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ACT10Npack

If you shy and nervous, have you ever thought about one on one counseling?

Ash07

Good luck with your meeting

Zebra1275

So, how was your meeting?

tzivia

It was ok. It was interesting to listen to the speaker. I was a little uncomfortable though. Everyone there already new each other, and there were probably a hundred people there. Huge meeting. A couple girls introduced themselves, but didn't really try to talk. I think I would do better in a smaller meeting, with about 30 people or so. I would like to at least make some friends in AA, so I feel a little more comfortable, and like I belong. I'm going to try to go to a different meeting today, one I hope is smaller, and I'll try to go up and introduce myself to people. I think that would help.

@ Actionpack - I do think I could benefit from counseling, but I don't have the money right now. It's definitely a plan for the future though.

On a brighter note, I'm on Day 7 of my sobriety!!! That's huge for me. I really feel like I'm doing well though. I feel like this is it, I'm not going to drink again, and that's a relief. I do hope this is really it.

stairs

Congratulations on day 7!

Sapling

Try a smaller group....I go to a speaker meeting here that's once a week and it's about 150 people....I hardly know any of them. It's different every week. I have my homegroup (smaller) and I know all of them.

2granddaughters

Right on, get a couple of phone numbers from folks that appeal to you and call them between meetings. Early in my recovery there was an oldtimer that would come and pick me up for the meetings... I know I would have "copped out" if he wasn't coming to get me, he kept me honest.
Get with a buddy or two and go to different meetings.

All the best !!

Bob R

eJoshua

Congrats on day 7!

There are as many types of groups out there as there are types of people, so keep looking and you'll find one that you feel comfortable in.

Danica2011

I'm on day 7 too! We share the same date! Congrats! WE can do this!

Zebra1275

Try a smaller meeting.

I've never been to a "large" meeting, most of the meetings I go to are less than 20 people. I've been to a few meetings where there was just 4 of us.

nonblondechef

tzivia I so understand shy and timid - especially amongst strangers. Like you, I prefer smaller numbers of people. I find it is easier to really be able to listen and comprehend what is being said in a more intimate setting. Congratulations on your successes - love reading that!!

Sapling

I have too...And they were great.

Taking5

Try a big book study meeting. This is where the solution lies IMHO.