Allright.... One more time!!!
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Allright.... One more time!!!
Time and time again I've moaned and groaned on this site. I'm sorry to you folks for that! How many times do I have to tell myslef I'm gonna seek help??
Once again I feel closer and closer to saying f it and quit my tylpicsl routine. In the past I've had the world handed to me by the balls to offer me help.
After tonight all I can say after drinking for five hours and being up since 5:30 am I'm beat!!
This is my drunk mind posting but I have the mentality to say screw work tommorow and ask my mom about help!
I value my job but I feel a sober life is more important. I can find another job if I have to!
Well see how this works out.
Once again I feel closer and closer to saying f it and quit my tylpicsl routine. In the past I've had the world handed to me by the balls to offer me help.
After tonight all I can say after drinking for five hours and being up since 5:30 am I'm beat!!
This is my drunk mind posting but I have the mentality to say screw work tommorow and ask my mom about help!
I value my job but I feel a sober life is more important. I can find another job if I have to!
Well see how this works out.
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I feel like such a failure. I'm balling like a little school girl and am a 24 year old grown ass man. I want to do this but I'm afraid of failure. As much as ive screwed up and as many people I've let down I really don't know what to think.
Sorry for the rant.
Sorry for the rant.
Trust me Tony, no matter how big, tough or old you are - that moment when you break down and admit the reality of your situation is a real emotional rollercoaster...all of us here know how you feel
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That takes some courage to tell anyone but a loved one is a real moment to remember
When times ease up and you think maybe you could handle another drink remember.
Hope all goes well and you embrace the new life. 24 great age to begin afresh.
John.
When times ease up and you think maybe you could handle another drink remember.
Hope all goes well and you embrace the new life. 24 great age to begin afresh.
John.
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This was one of my biggest fears too....Now I see it was just a matter of trying something different....It's all about change Tony......If nothing changes in what you are trying....You have to expect the same results.
So glad you are back here Tony, and that you are going to get into rehab. I know your mom is happy too. Breaking open is one of the best ways to begin healing, no need to apologize or feel ashamed for crying etc.it's probably a good sign!
That took a lot of guts, Tony. I'm sure it was hard, but there is a lot of freedom in getting this stuff off our chests to the people closest to us. Now you can really move on toward the sober life that you want and will have the full support of your mom. That is HUGE. I'm so glad you are doing this while you're still young enough to enjoy the rest of your life. I wish I had! Please keep us posted on how you're doing. We're rooting for you.
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Well folks I went to the rehab center, they don't have any spots right now. Today I got fired from my job so now I'm 24 year old unemployed drunk living with my mom. If this isn't rock bottom idk what is.
Idk what to think, im realizing nothing is gonna get better. I'm just gonna keep screwing up mh life and be an angry drunk like my dad and grandpa.
I'm realizing I'm not gonna change unless I get help!
I guess it's time to man the f up and fix this.
Idk what to think, im realizing nothing is gonna get better. I'm just gonna keep screwing up mh life and be an angry drunk like my dad and grandpa.
I'm realizing I'm not gonna change unless I get help!
I guess it's time to man the f up and fix this.
Think you are.
Use the time to rest whilst getting sober ,then exercise to fill time.
Then use your sober time to live your life.
Great age to see the rest.of your life and be able to get out of this cycle that doesn't work .great to think you could be setting the trend of happy sober men.
John .
Use the time to rest whilst getting sober ,then exercise to fill time.
Then use your sober time to live your life.
Great age to see the rest.of your life and be able to get out of this cycle that doesn't work .great to think you could be setting the trend of happy sober men.
John .
If you're committed to the idea of rehab Tony, this is a national searchable database
Substance Abuse Treatment Facility Locator
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Substance Abuse Treatment Facility Locator
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