Leemzer

Hey all,
I have been a member of this forum before, but cannot find my login or evidence of my postings. That sucks because I wrote probably more than anyone on here! I would have liked to have looked at all of the old postings, but maybe it is just best to start fresh.

I quit drinking on January 5, 2010 and went almost 10 months without a drink. I was bored and started again, and up until now I have managed pretty well but just decided that it was easier to not drink than to try to moderate.

I also added another monkey on my back, which was hydrocodone, at about 50mg a day. I think I substituted that for drinking less. But my last drink was March 26, 2012 and my last Hydrocodone (I tapered) was March 27th.

Today is my birthday so I thought it was a good time to rejoin under a new moniker. I wish to live my life sober from here on out and am going to consider this to be day 7, though it is day 8 without alcohol.

As for my drinking, I am a binge drinker, have never craved it, but can drink a zillion drinks when I do. I never, ever crave alcohol and can take it or leave it but of course I ALWAYS start again, hence the alcoholism that I now see. I just never craved it like I did when I was a smoker so I justified that there was NO WAY I could be an alcoholic.

My 10 months in 2010 of complete sobriety were the best of my life, and I had some REALLY MAJOR life events during that year. Here is to the next year. I have a goal of reaching one year of sobriety and plan on posting every day....you should follow me, this should get interested.....so hey everyone! =)

Dee74

welcome back leemzer

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sugarbear1

Welcome!

IndaMiricale

Welcome back. And wow I see Dee has over 44k you had him beat huh?

Leemzer

Uhh, Dee is a moderator. Also, mine wasn't necessarily the number of posts, but the pages and pages of my heart that I spilt on here....I just was wondering if all of that disappeared when the site was revamped, or archived in some way....or just buried in the zillions of threads?

Seriously, I would like to find that thread again....if anyone could help that would be great. I have no problems mentioning my old screen name: it was Leezer....My searches seem to come up empty.

I left the forum when it seemed inactive for a long time and I felt like I was the only one on here...then there were all of these pornographic postings, etc etc. I printed out all of my pages once but then lost them...

It is good to be back and good to actually hear from some folks.

Today being my birthday, I am excited about sobriety for the first time in a long, long time. It is so easy when you get back into the swing of bad ways to see time just lapse by. I probably only got drunk maybe 12 times in the time I drank (not that that is good) but the WAY I felt when I drank was the most important thing. I just feel like the older I get the worse and worse I feel when I DO drink. It is a guilt complex because I know it is not in my best interests to be doing it, and that I know better.

I wonder how many folks are like me and consider themselves to be primarily a binge alcoholic? It is a difficult peg to fit into, because it is so easy to convince yourself that you don't have a problem since you don't drink daily or feel as though you have the urge to drink. Also, I do not have any problems being around others who drink when I have made the choice to be clean. It does not bother me at all in regard to wanting to drink, it bothers me more when people get sloppy and talk and talk ad nauseum and repetitiously. Just like I did. =)

IndaMiricale

I was just teasin with ya And Happy B Day then And its awesome to hear that your excited about your sobriety.

Leezer

Hey, I found out my old info but I cannot find the thread. This is how I will post from now on, as my old self, or perhaps I should go new...anyway, I did find the login information...now it is going to run me crazy finding that thread, ha ha! If I could just remember the name of it!!

Leemzer

Nah, that guy is gone. This is the new me. =)

Leemzer

Day 8 and I am ready to go! It is amazing to me each time I do this how good I feel, and also each time I do this I fail BECAUSE it seemed easy to do it....*Need to remember that* I feel like I am waking up from a foggy sleep. Better dreams already!

Leemzer

I was in the restroom and out of the blue *Wham!* the voice, it beckoned...."you can start AFTER EASTER....it was your birthday yesterday after all....you should be able to have some fun...." OH HELL NO! LOL