Day five, really want a beer!
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I honestly appreciate all of your feedback. I was very grumpy yesterday, thus the "I don't want to argue" stance. But I want you to know that I AM hearing you. I wouldn't be coming back if I didn't feel like I was getting something from these interactions.
I have therapy today, and it will be the first time I have laid it all out there to another person about my drinking habits. I printed the list that I made last week. I'm ready to have a straight conversation about it, and get her feedback.
After eating yesterday, I really did feel so much better. I learned the HALT thing from recovering from an eating disorder in my teens, and I think being both hungry and exhausted, and getting sick (I woke up with a NASTY cold!) really played into my cravings yesterday. In the end, I'm glad I didn't drink because I didn't run away!
I think Dee's comment resonated with me most. I don't want to run from life. I don't want to have things that are "crutches", that I "need" to get thru.
Here's to day 6! I think this is where i quit last year when I decided to go one week sober. I felt that by going 6 days, I proved that I could go a week. I know, I know......
I have therapy today, and it will be the first time I have laid it all out there to another person about my drinking habits. I printed the list that I made last week. I'm ready to have a straight conversation about it, and get her feedback.
After eating yesterday, I really did feel so much better. I learned the HALT thing from recovering from an eating disorder in my teens, and I think being both hungry and exhausted, and getting sick (I woke up with a NASTY cold!) really played into my cravings yesterday. In the end, I'm glad I didn't drink because I didn't run away!
I think Dee's comment resonated with me most. I don't want to run from life. I don't want to have things that are "crutches", that I "need" to get thru.
Here's to day 6! I think this is where i quit last year when I decided to go one week sober. I felt that by going 6 days, I proved that I could go a week. I know, I know......
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Today is my day 5. I can relate to a lot of your posts. The last time I did this, a few months back, I made it 4 days and then went and bought two tall boys hours afte rdinner and enjoyed them tremendously. I though, wow, I made it four days, that means I am not dependent--Lucky me. Needless to say, although I tried moderation, I still went way more than I needed when I was "grilling" for the family on weekends.
I struggle with the labels of what I am or what I am not, but I know I like to drink and I like to drink more than others do. This tome, I am committed to losing some weight and becoming as fit as I can, and I use that for my justification. At least for these last 5 days, that has seemed easier than saying that I should not drink, because I said I wont for x amount of days and I am strong and not addicted.
Today is my day 5. I can relate to a lot of your posts. The last time I did this, a few months back, I made it 4 days and then went and bought two tall boys hours afte rdinner and enjoyed them tremendously. I though, wow, I made it four days, that means I am not dependent--Lucky me. Needless to say, although I tried moderation, I still went way more than I needed when I was "grilling" for the family on weekends.
I struggle with the labels of what I am or what I am not, but I know I like to drink and I like to drink more than others do. This tome, I am committed to losing some weight and becoming as fit as I can, and I use that for my justification. At least for these last 5 days, that has seemed easier than saying that I should not drink, because I said I wont for x amount of days and I am strong and not addicted.
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Holly and LCFF,
Thanks so much. It never even occured to me that I could be helping someone else in my posts, or that others could relate to my wrestling so much.
Holly, I really appreciate that you hear honesty in my posts. That's what I'm striving for.
Thanks so much. It never even occured to me that I could be helping someone else in my posts, or that others could relate to my wrestling so much.
Holly, I really appreciate that you hear honesty in my posts. That's what I'm striving for.
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Just curious, what do you think it will mean if you do manage to tough out the cravings you're experiencing for the relief and comfort a drink brings you for 30 days?
I know you said that if you were to somehow make that 30 days it would be longer than you've managed to resist your desire to drink in the past many years, but what would it signify to you?
At the end of my drinking I'd go some 3-4 months before returning to alcoholic drinking, and it was quickly as much fun as when I quit, so I was spinning in meaningless circles. Just wondered what you're expecting out of not the 4 months that didn't change anything for me, but just the 1 month, if you were to manage that?
I know you said that if you were to somehow make that 30 days it would be longer than you've managed to resist your desire to drink in the past many years, but what would it signify to you?
At the end of my drinking I'd go some 3-4 months before returning to alcoholic drinking, and it was quickly as much fun as when I quit, so I was spinning in meaningless circles. Just wondered what you're expecting out of not the 4 months that didn't change anything for me, but just the 1 month, if you were to manage that?
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Originally Posted by langkah 
Just curious, what do you think it will mean if you do manage to tough out the cravings you're experiencing for the relief and comfort a drink brings you for 30 days?
I know you said that if you were to somehow make that 30 days it would be longer than you've managed to resist your desire to drink in the past many years, but what would it signify to you?
At the end of my drinking I'd go some 3-4 months before returning to alcoholic drinking, and it was quickly as much fun as when I quit, so I was spinning in meaningless circles. Just wondered what you're expecting out of not the 4 months that didn't change anything for me, but just the 1 month, if you were to manage that?
I know you said that if you were to somehow make that 30 days it would be longer than you've managed to resist your desire to drink in the past many years, but what would it signify to you?
At the end of my drinking I'd go some 3-4 months before returning to alcoholic drinking, and it was quickly as much fun as when I quit, so I was spinning in meaningless circles. Just wondered what you're expecting out of not the 4 months that didn't change anything for me, but just the 1 month, if you were to manage that?
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