Just me and Just fine
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Just me and Just fine
65 days sober.
Second meeting.
Big smile on my face.
I have long had the sense that I am invisible. Never a pot stirrer, just head down and nose to the grind stone. If I am invisible, I don't get hurt and I don't have to feel; I've spent years just existing and going about my business, fearful and lonely. Alcohol took me from invisible to drunken life of the party to living a guilt filled and miserable existance. Then I found SR, full of people who do not judge - just care deeply.
Today, I "Let go and let God" take away my fear of walking through that door and actually rather enjoyed being seen as just an ordinary person. No one's boss, employee, mother, sister, daughter, neice or drinking buddy. Just alcoholic me, grateful for being sober and recovering more every day. My drive is intact and my spirit soars. I am thankful. I realized I have lots of compassionate and am becoming a better person. In the meantime, while travelling this path...
...I am just me and that, my friends is just fine. It is a really good feeling.
Second meeting.
Big smile on my face.
I have long had the sense that I am invisible. Never a pot stirrer, just head down and nose to the grind stone. If I am invisible, I don't get hurt and I don't have to feel; I've spent years just existing and going about my business, fearful and lonely. Alcohol took me from invisible to drunken life of the party to living a guilt filled and miserable existance. Then I found SR, full of people who do not judge - just care deeply.
Today, I "Let go and let God" take away my fear of walking through that door and actually rather enjoyed being seen as just an ordinary person. No one's boss, employee, mother, sister, daughter, neice or drinking buddy. Just alcoholic me, grateful for being sober and recovering more every day. My drive is intact and my spirit soars. I am thankful. I realized I have lots of compassionate and am becoming a better person. In the meantime, while travelling this path...
...I am just me and that, my friends is just fine. It is a really good feeling.
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