Purplecatlover

I have to do this. I can DO this. I will do this. I can not live this way. I don't want to live this way. I will not live this way. I'm fed up with myself. I will not be controlled by something or anyone!!!!! Except GOD.
1/13/12

These were the words, I wrote to myself while drinking. I was so angry at myself for being in this same boat for the umpteenth billion time.

This time I turned all that anger, hatred away from myself & put it onto the source of my misery....alcohol.
It's a whole lot easier to abstain from something, when you despise it.
I started to love myself again & the whole relationship did a flip flop.
I no longer hated myself & loved alcohol.
I loved myself & hated alcohol.
It has been a much easier separation this time.

Sapling

That's pretty cool PCL...I'd hang on to that...

Luvdogs

Purplecat I love your posts! Keep them coming....

Anna

I agree that loving ourselves is essential for recovery. It's often hard to do because of we've created so many messes in our lives. But, I think the bottom line is that if you love yourself, you can't continue to poison your body.

debsam

Amen!
I love your posts too.

I remember turning a corner with alcohol and truly seeing it simply as poison, for me. Took some time for me too PCL, but got there. FREEDOM!!

Scolova

hate diminishes as our mind's eye regains focus.

Congrats on your sobriety.

Hevyn

Great job, Purplecatlover. You are really getting it this time. Very proud of you.

nonblondechef

Awesome, awesome, awesome classmate! So proud of your accomplishments!!

RobbyRobot

Yeah, you CAN and you ARE doing it, Purplecatlover!!
Love is the answer and without it -- epic fail, as you know!
So good to hear you share from a place of strength and power
for doing it right