flamingredhair

Biting the bullet.

I want to succeed and be happy so I'm getting my **** together. Starting tomorrow I'm going to attend one meeting per day for the next week. That is goal number one. Keeping goals simple and easy to meet so that I will not set myself up for failure.

Anewlife4me11

Good for you and good luck!

Dee74

Glad to see you back fighting this FRH

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Sapling

That sounds doable...Sounds like a good plan..I found setting some time aside each day to read the Big Book was just as important...First 164 pages...Read a chapter a day and when you get done..Start over and read it again...There is a lot in that book...A whole lot.

flamingredhair

I have to do this. I've become a pathetic drunk and I don't like myself this way.

Those who know me here know my feelings about AA but to hell with my "feelings." Time to put them aside and stop being so damned stubborn and stupid. I want to get well. I want to be happy. I can't do either if I don't take the bull by the horns.

Fenris

Good for you FRH. I wasn't thrilled about going to AA at first either, but when weighed against the prospect of continuing to live as I had been, the choice became much easier. Let us know how it goes.

Sapling

Nobody goes there on a winning streak FRH...Just be open minded and let them show you how to do it...It works. Use the support you have here to help you..

Elisabeth888

Glad to hear it! You CAN do it.

In addition to the BB, I recommend the 12&12, Daily Reflections and 24 Hours a Day, all can probably be purchased at your meeting.

Elisabeth888

Glad to hear it! You CAN do it.

In addition to the BB, I recommend the 12&12, Daily Reflections and 24 Hours a Day, all can probably be purchased at your meeting.

CaiHong

Hi FRH,

I am so glad you are back. Good for you for not giving up with this new attitude I know you will make it, keep posting.
I am 9 months sober with the support of this forum and AA. Sapling is right keep reading the big book.

CaiHong

flamingredhair

Glad to be back. I'm humbled.

Sapling

Glad you're here FRH...

WakeUp

Now dem's fightin' words frh!
Good luck, keep an open mind, relax at the meeting, and just listen to what people there have to say.

2granddaughters

I know what you mean, we have to be beaten down pretty bad before we become teachable.

I wish you the best. You will like AA, it's worked for me for over 20 yrs.

Bob R

desertsong

I hear you, flaming. Fell off the wagon again myself last night. But as long as we keep on trying, we have not failed.

We can do this together. I am humbled too. We'll make it.

eJoshua

One week is a great start

DayTrader

Good deal FRH... willingness to set aside what we "want" to do and trying something different... I'M HUMBLED. It's great to watch ppl taking action against alcoholism!!

Also, I sense a little hostility......good! It helped me a lot to get mad AT alcoholism. It helped me with my willingness to do things I wouldn't have ordinarily done.

FlyerFan

Love that attitude FRH! Keep that up and you'll find the happiness you're looking for.

jocata

Best wishes on you journey FRH. Your life and your freedom are at stake. We all have to remember that.

God bless.

flamingredhair

I did it!

I went to a new meeting today. I ended up loving this one. People said things I really needed to hear and I listened. I even managed to speak without choking on my words. I met several women and exchanged phone numbers and even asked one about going to lunch because she told me that she's willing to be a sponsor.

I'm proud of myself for once.

So many people came over to hug me and reassure me. No judgement.

Saw two people I went through treatment with the first time back in 2006. One is still going strong, the other recently relapsed for the first time.

Nobody was preachy, which was a really big thing for me.

Nice thing is, this group meets every M-W-F.

I'm feeling encouraged.