How did this happen??
 

I am so embarrassed my mum is an alcoholic and drug addict and i have always thought i would never be like that I don't need a drink and can go weeks without drinking but when I do drink I drink excessively I am so ashamed.
Last night was a work night out and i got so drunk i have lost a few hours and have no idea what happened. I am a good person i have tried so hard to make my life good i worship my children and husband however once drunk i behave in such an awful way. I dont know what to do but I know that I cant drink anymore I dont want to be that person.

Hey Amy...I don't think any of us are bad people...Just dealing with a bad problem. The good news is...There are ways you can quit. And this site has quite a few peple that have and are willing to help you. We do some embarrassing things when we drink..That goes with territory...But the fact that you are recognising you have a problem and want to stop is a great start...Welcome to SR...There is a lot of good support here.

Plenty of help here amy, we're all rootin for ya. Welcome. :You_Rock_

Its the alcohol that makes us bad. We cannot control our intake of it. Those are 2 separate facts. Dont blame yourself, just seek your personal solution (AA, SR, etc) stick to it, and keep coming back for support, we are all in the same boat as you

Your recognition of what you want to do is fantastic Amy. Welcome to SR.

Welcome to SR Amy - you'll find a lot of support and encouragement here :)

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What we can,t change is our biological predisposition.

Alcohol is toxic, and addictive

Amy, I'm sure you're not a bad person. You just have a problem with alcohol. We all do. The only thing for any of us to do about it is to stop - there's really no other solution, but that's okay because it's a *wonderful* solution that will make your life so much better.

Welcome to SR. Glad you're here. :)

Good people can make bad choices.. we can also make good ones. I also came from an alcoholic home, and thought I could never 'be like that'.. wrong. Good for you for identifying that you need to stop drinking, that's the easy part.. your next good choices in how to address that are the tough ones. Glad you're here, there's a ton of support and experience to be found in these posts, the 'stickies', in chat, etc. Welcome!

That sounds like me. You're not alone. Glad you're here!

Thank you all for your kind responses. I am feeling strong and I really do know I have a problem and I know the solution I am sure its going to be hard but this is the first day of my new alcohol free life.

Let's hear it.

Dont drink. I know its going to be very hard its almost overwhelming to consider how difficult but I am sure life will be better without it.

Why don't you try some kind of recover plan?...Something to assist you rather than trying it alone....AA....Rational Recovery...SMART...Lifering....You need to put some effort in this Amy...This is serious business....Action is what it's all about.

Amy, like you, I knew what the solution to my problem with alcohol was going to be, and it was dead simple - stop drinking. It was the 'how' that posed the challenge. Make sure that your solution to your problem includes the commitment to take advantage of any and every tool you can find to achieve this, and there is a long list. Get crackin', and keep posting.