Counting Days vs. Walking Sober
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Counting Days vs. Walking Sober
I had an epiphany today while running. I am a fairly new runner if measured across the course of my life. Only in the last 4 years have I taken to running, prior to that, I was overweight, out of breath, and well...an alcoholic sloth. As part of my running paraphanelia, in addition to the fancy clothes, I have a Garmin GPS watch that measures my heart rate, mileage, speed, etc. I never leave home without it.
In my last three months of running sober, I have been coming to certain realizations-
Then it dawned on me as I went out this morning- I don't really need this watch to tell me the metrics which make me believe I'm doing the right things- my body just knows, and it is a way of life for me now. Today, I went out for a run, without any regard to the hard facts, my body guided my path.
I'm guessing that it is no surprise to anybody who is reading this that I made the connection to counting days in my sobriety during today's run. I'm coming to the point where I just don't care anymore how long I have been sober - I have transitioned to the Sober walk of life. It is ingrained in my fiber, I don't mourn its loss, I don't think about it when I'm at dinner, It doesn't tempt me when a glass of scotch is right next to me. Most importantly, when that little voice starts gnawing at me when I'm anxious - it no longer asks for alcohol. It asks me to start addressing what is bothering me.
I'm done counting....different strokes for different folks though - I GET THAT TOO!
PS - By the way, this only makes sense to me now Sober. When Forrest Gump is being bullied bythe little kids, and Jenny says Run Forrest Run....He starts to break the shackles of his walking braces, and finally runs free - that's when his life takes off.
In my last three months of running sober, I have been coming to certain realizations-
- My body can feel the right pace
- I inherently know how long I want to run to feel like I got my workout
- My speed is a function of heart rate, not MPH or time
Then it dawned on me as I went out this morning- I don't really need this watch to tell me the metrics which make me believe I'm doing the right things- my body just knows, and it is a way of life for me now. Today, I went out for a run, without any regard to the hard facts, my body guided my path.
I'm guessing that it is no surprise to anybody who is reading this that I made the connection to counting days in my sobriety during today's run. I'm coming to the point where I just don't care anymore how long I have been sober - I have transitioned to the Sober walk of life. It is ingrained in my fiber, I don't mourn its loss, I don't think about it when I'm at dinner, It doesn't tempt me when a glass of scotch is right next to me. Most importantly, when that little voice starts gnawing at me when I'm anxious - it no longer asks for alcohol. It asks me to start addressing what is bothering me.
I'm done counting....different strokes for different folks though - I GET THAT TOO!
PS - By the way, this only makes sense to me now Sober. When Forrest Gump is being bullied bythe little kids, and Jenny says Run Forrest Run....He starts to break the shackles of his walking braces, and finally runs free - that's when his life takes off.
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