Purplecatlover

I'm sad to have to let you go, but you've given me no other choice. In the beginning of our relationship, you made me feel on top of the world. You made me so happy, funny, energetic. I loved how good I felt with you. Strong, brave, secure & invincible.
But over time, you began to use me. You started controlling my mind, my body, & my soul. You invaded every part of me & never satisfied me. I just kept hungering for more.
You were elusive. Even though we were together, you didn't make me happy anymore. The euphoria was gone. The fun was over. You left me with a broken heart, a devastated body & an incurable disease of the mind.
You made me look like a fool so many times. You've cost me relationships with people that "really" love me.
You've turned me into a liar, cheater, thief& a loser.
You've cost me a ton of money.
You robbed me my self respect, my health, & my sanity.
You took away countless, precious hours, I won't ever get back.
You made me depressed, anxious, even suicidal.
That is why our relationship is over.
I can not, will not have you in my life.
You've destroyed too much that means too much to me.
You are heartless, selfish, abusive, controlling, lying, cheating & destructive.
You've tried to whisper in my ear about how good it would be if we got back
together, but I know it's lies.
You will not deceive me anymore.
It is over. I'm done with you. I will not let you destroy me any longer.
Now that I've been away from you, my life is so much better. I'm happier,
healthier & have peace.
You are no good for me.
I'm done being your puppet.
My life is mine, you can not have it.
Good bye forever!

Sapling

Nice letter PCL...Didn't that feel good? Well done!

Purplecatlover

Yes Sapling. It feels great to be free of that pain & suffering.

Sapling

Keep vigilant.

quitforme79

Love your letter!! Rock on!

Purplecatlover

Thanks. It was quite therapeutic & a nice reminder to visit when I start to "forget" the pain.

BillyPilgrim

I keep coming back to SR to read stuff like that and stay sober, thanks PCL

nel68

That was a great Dear John letter to alcohol ...keep up the good work Purplecatlover

neferkamichael

Thanks for the thread, you are FANTASTIC!!!

sober4metoday

I love it! Thanks for sharing! That rat b@st@rd did the same thing to me!!

stepping

PCL - You are awesome and just made my heart tingle!!!! Keep posting!!! Loved this. Stuff like this on SR keeps me sober!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Purplecatlover

Sober4me, I laughed out loud @ r@t b@$trd.
But that's exactly what he is!

Lind

This was awesome purplecatlover!! Thanks for sharing!! This will help alot of people including me!! Lind

katrinka

Wow! I loved this. I hope you know how much posts like that are a reminder to me to stay away from alcohol and ignore my evil enemy brain who whispers lies to me.

Purplecatlover

Thought this was worth resurrecting
It's still true.

GerandTwine

Hi PCL,
I thought this was worth RE-resurrecting !
When the Beast knows you've forgotten the down side of drinking it will try to smash your Big Plan with real anxiety over your ever having made it in the first place. You're now beginning to see the true value of The Big Plan. The Beast is just doing its job. You have a healthy brain.

I once had an amazing stretch of Beast activity where I had recurring dreams and awake anxiety that I had already failed at my Big Plan when I hadn't at all. I had quit long enough ago that IT managed to get me to temporarily confuse earlier fake promises to quit with my BP.

Your early posts to the Secular Connections forum are also a good read.

Keep your Beast's respone to your husband's drinking separate from Your Own response to his drinking. Then you will be in position to see if his daily drinking is a problem in your relationship.