FLA

The struggling is about to start, I've just got back to the beaches after staying with the folks for a few days. I'm back where all the parties, alcohol, and drugs are. I've already been told about parties this weekend and I'm thinking about going to them to "try" and drink I'm telling myself since it's been a week why not drink and go another week... We'll see what happens I'm gonna try and go to a AA meeting tomorrow night tho. This sucks.

Dee74

You already know what drinking gets you FLA - why not give not drinking a decent run?

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Sapling

Well....If this is your recovery plan....I'll see you for your next starting over thread. If it was me trying to stay sober...I probably would have stayed with the folks awhile longer. I hope you "try" and go to a meeting...Before you "try" and drink. Good luck to you man.

sober4metoday

FLA....do you want to get sober?

MentalLoop

Try not to drink today.

FLA

Of course I want to get sober. There's just so many temptations all around me it's kind of over welling. I really hope a AA meeting will shoot me straight. I'll keep posting.

augustwest

do or do not, there is no try

1983ritag

The longer you fight it, the easier it gets.

Fandy

it sounds like you are formulating an excuse. You've purposely put yourself into a situation where you are surrounded by parties and booze.

i think you have to ask yourself why you chose this route....that will lead you straight back to binge drinking. I hope you relive your time in the ER and "play the tape through to the end" before you pick up.

i know we all sound "preachy" but we're more objective than you right now.

LadyNoBinge

FLA! You posted this YESTERDAY! Please take your own advice. You can do this.
Temptations will always be there, we need to change our responses to them.

"Go read my old thread, I thought moderately drinking and just drinking on the weekends was ok. Then I spiraled out of control in a matter of a month after coming here. Sometimes you have to find out on your own. But if your wise and realize why you actually came here you'll realize that it's better to just ask for help and become sober. Keep posting and keep your head up, Good luck and feel better "

Keep us posted. xo

soberlicious

So, so true....and responses can be changed.

FLA, have you ever read about AVRT?

Sapling

You knew that damn well when you went back there FLA...You were ready to go back there your first day at your parents house. You need to take a hard look at reality and see if this is what you want....Otherwise all you are doing is harshing your buzz....It's called getting honest with yourself...Try it!

sugarbear1

Meetings help, for an hour. Working the program of recovery can help you change your old patterns of behavior for a lifetime.

MentalLoop

FLA - I was guilty of overwhelming you too initially and I'm sorry for that. I think you know all the logical conclusions about drinking. But judging by your posts, I'm not sure it is fruitful for you to really worry about the partys or other drinking venues coming up. Staying off the sauce today will be hard enough - so focus today (I know - redundant from my prior post). But this is the most powerful lesson - tomorrow will come, be sure of it. Temptation will come, be sure of that. If you add up all the impending future opportunities to fail, it is overwhelming. So tackle that when you get to tomorrow; today, just worry about today.

FLA

I'm going to a AA meeting tonight for sure, I want a friend to come with me tho, I don't want it tone awkward. I haven't slept good in so long! I'm on 3 hours of sleep in two days. I'm at the doctors rite now for my lab results from last week. Should i ask for a sleep aid and anxiety medications? Or will that slow my brains recovery from the alcohol?

Sapling

Get honest with your doctor and tell him what your going through...And don't lie about how much you have been drinking!

langkah

Glad to hear you're going to check out a meeting, hope you hear, see, or feel something that intrigues you there.