ovrock

I realise now that it is counterproductive for me... I could go for weeks without drinking, then get comfortable. It only takes one sip to send me into days of drunken oblivion...

I aint gonna come here no more and waste your time with my sad stories. I just feel I need to approach this disease from a different angle.. It's just soooooo damn hard when you have no real support. My therapist is stretched. He does lectures at schools, works in the rehab, the prison, the hospital etc etc. I am not getting what I thought I would out of him. Add to that there is a serious lack of professionals in this department here...

Something is telling me I may need to relocate...

That's my vent for the day. Just wanted to inform those concerned that I am still here fighting this battle...

Sapling

Good to see you ovrock....Might be time to get off the rock....I lived in the islands myself for 20+ years. Not exactly ideal conditions to get sober. Nothing changes if nothing changes. Good luck to you.

2granddaughters

Is there an AA meeting in your town ?

ovrock

Yeah, but the last "A" aint present. It's a very small place, and there are certain things I am not prepared to disclose on this island...

Dee74

You're not wasting my time - and I think SR is one of the best places you can be, Ovrock.

There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

Many methods - like AA, SMART, and LifeRing - offer online meetings - some methods - like Rational Recovery - have no meetings at all.

I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.

The main thing tho - whatever you decide to do - is do something.
In my experience, inaction just leads to more drinking....

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sissy07

Stay on SR, please? I get a lot out of your posts. Take care.

Anna

You're definitely not wasting anyone's time when you come here.

I'm glad you're still working on your recovery and maybe it's a good idea that you are thinking of moving.

dorito281211

I feel SR is a fellowship in and of itself. So many of us don't or can't do f2f meetings so this forum is key to all of our recoveries, including yours
God bless you!

langkah

Sorry to hear about the problem with your therapist. Hope it works out.

instant

Recovery is a journey not a destination. We are all in it together. There is as much A here as you want.

ovrock

Thanks everyone. This has been a very busy and very SOBER week for me. I will keep you posted...

Oh and before I hit the road. I never meant I was going to leave SR. I just felt that I come here repeating the same old all the time. What I really meant was, I am not going to go into details of what I did, how much I did, how I feel etc etc... It's like a broken record..

I need to concentrate on recovery, and a formula for recovery. I realise that discussing my drunken behavior gets me more depressed and guilty. And probably bore others to death too..

phoebe64

Your stories, as well as all stories here, help me, and I am sure others, to stay in recovery, perhaps to choose recovery, and maybe prevent all of us, at one time or another from taking the next drink, right now.

So many nights, I come and read, and read, and read, and I see sad stories, truly horrific ones, and also great stories of recovery. Each and every one helps me to keep my eye on the prize. I imagine it helps everyone in that very basic way.

On a grander scale, there is so much really good advice, and sage wisdom here as well. Do not feel like you bore anyone.

rochele

Sapling

You never bore me Rock...I know all too well what it's it like to be surrounded by drunken sun burned tourists...I never even thought of recovery there...I give you utmost credit for that!

flutter

Doesn't really sound like counting your sober time is the issue.. but for what it's worth, something my counselor talked to me about very early on was to not emphasize how far away I was from my last drink (ie; counting my days) but to stay vigilant about how close my next drink could be. The last day that I drank is an important date for me to have burned into my brain.. but other than that, I haven't counted past about 3 months.. and now it's been a bit over three years.

Glad you're sticking around.. a lot of us struggled a ton early on, before sobriety "stuck". It sounds like you're able to identify some of the roadblocks you're experiencing, and you're being thoughtful about what you need in your recovery.

Hevyn

Very glad you're not leaving, Ovrock. You're important here.