Almost 373 days...
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Join Date: Feb 2011
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Almost 373 days...
My sobriety-day kinda came and went...no fireworks, no balloons or streamers, no 21 gun salute....just the calmness, the security, the positivity that everyday I wake up sober and try to be the best person I know how to be.
This time last year I was a week into quitting for good. It was a rough week, clouded head, no emotions, too many emotions, dealing with feelings, not having any feelings...and worse, dealing with just me.
Everyday I had to get up the guts to change myself. To improve on myself, to make something better. Anything. Any change is a positive change. I changed everything from my thinking to which sock I put on first. Once the change started, change was easier to change. Change felt good and was easier each day...each minute with each decision.
I learned how to rethink things with my best interest in mind. I learned how to think about me and think how I would feel or react to things. I decided that my life was the most important thing. I decided my feelings mattered. I decided that I needed to feed my feelings and stop living life feeling guilty for my feelings. I decided not only to change how I felt about things but how I reacted to them. What am I going to do differently this time?
Life is so much easier to manage when you're in control. My life was for once mine and only I could navigate its outcome.
I'm going through some little things...we all are. But I have come to the realization that I have the power to make my own decisions and keep my world in order. It is up to me if I will have a good day or not.
Wishing you all peace and just know we are all in this together.
This time last year I was a week into quitting for good. It was a rough week, clouded head, no emotions, too many emotions, dealing with feelings, not having any feelings...and worse, dealing with just me.
Everyday I had to get up the guts to change myself. To improve on myself, to make something better. Anything. Any change is a positive change. I changed everything from my thinking to which sock I put on first. Once the change started, change was easier to change. Change felt good and was easier each day...each minute with each decision.
I learned how to rethink things with my best interest in mind. I learned how to think about me and think how I would feel or react to things. I decided that my life was the most important thing. I decided my feelings mattered. I decided that I needed to feed my feelings and stop living life feeling guilty for my feelings. I decided not only to change how I felt about things but how I reacted to them. What am I going to do differently this time?
Life is so much easier to manage when you're in control. My life was for once mine and only I could navigate its outcome.
I'm going through some little things...we all are. But I have come to the realization that I have the power to make my own decisions and keep my world in order. It is up to me if I will have a good day or not.
Wishing you all peace and just know we are all in this together.
Powerless over Alcohol
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Trudging the Road to Happy Destiny!
Posts: 4,018
Right on and thank you 
To chose this way of life is so much easier and way more enjoyable then that old alcoholic life. Yes ups and down as you said but know we deal with them and grow and move along with them.
Congrats on your year and enjoy everything you have gained. Big Hugs.
Good love, Inda
To chose this way of life is so much easier and way more enjoyable then that old alcoholic life. Yes ups and down as you said but know we deal with them and grow and move along with them.
Congrats on your year and enjoy everything you have gained. Big Hugs.
Good love, Inda
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Posts: 3,089
Congrats, EmeraldRose. I've truly enjoyed your posts over the last year, and growing with you. You've come a long way, baby!
I admire you, and your sobriety. Keep it going, and keep posting. You are appreciated!
I admire you, and your sobriety. Keep it going, and keep posting. You are appreciated!
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: New England
Posts: 732
Thank you Emeraldrose for an inspiring post. I love your statement that life is easier to manage when you're in control. So true! Congratulations on your sobriety and all the positive changes you have made.
Beautiful EmeraldRose. Much Congrats!!
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