PoppiesInJuly

And I am posting instead of just lurking...I want to hold myself accountable. I want to watch my days go up. I want to watch all of your days go up too.

I am so exhausted. And shakey and sweaty.

I have a half a bottle of wine I am going to go pour out now...to the toilet it goes. Which is exactly where it belongs.

Then it's off to work.

I will definitely check back in tonight, as I know sleeping might not come very easily...

wander2

Good luck, I know I have had a number of day 1's myself.

LindseyMarie

PoppiesinJuly: Day 1 again here as well. I poured my bottle out this morning. Stupid bottle.

Jeans

Hang in there, well done for getting rid of the wine. Keep telling yourself that you CAN do this. Good luck and keep posting x

Lind

You can do it Poppies!! I also join the day 1 crowd!! We can do this!!! Will be looking for your post!! Lind

Dee74

welcome back
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rypen

Good job buddy... =) keep on trudging it can only get better from this. Remember how you feel right now, right about it so u can reflect back on it later when you are getting insane thoughts again. I have had too many day ones myself.

artsoul

Glad you're back with us, Poppies - things are going to get better, so hang in there.

PoppiesInJuly

This place is always so welcoming and warm.

Almost time for bed. (easier said than done...)

I'm thinking a movie and some snacks....and lots of water.

FlyerFan

stay strong poppies! come here whenever you feel like drinking!

2granddaughters

Poppies, are you attending AA meetings?

Wishing you the best.

Bob R.

Zebra1275

Welcome back, Poppies!

PoppiesInJuly

I'm starting day 2 with midnight.
That's when I tried to go to bed.
Mostly I just lay there and sweat
all night. Didn't really have any
nightmares because I didn't do
much sleeping, but alot of thinking...

Got up to get my daughter off to school,
then I came home and climbed back into
bed and slept hard for about 2 hours.
Had really vivid dreams of going on a cruise
and having a miserable time because I broke
out in some awful rash all over my body, and
another dream in which all of my teeth fell out..
I could have slept all day. The dreams were not
pleseant, but it was almost like my body was so
relieved to be having the kind of sleep where I
dream again..

I got up and felt pretty draggy all day, but not too
shaky or anxious at all, but I'm really tired and looking
forward to climbing back in tonight.

I have to say I've been pretty irritable, and the sugar
cravings are already starting to kick in already.

So, that's my day 2! Looking forward to 3...

instant

stick with it and you will be free

hector

Hi, poppies. Welcome to SR. Please hang in there. Don't drink, no matter what. My worst day sober is better than my best day drunk. If I think, I won't drink; if I drink, I can't think. One day at a time: a camel can go 24 hours without a drink, so can I. It gets easier. It gets better.

My sobriety date is Nov. 27, 1988. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.

PoppiesInJuly

Day 3 and I'm doing really well. No cravings whatsoever. It probably helps that more people knew about me being buzzed recently than I was aware of. Just embarassing. I can't stand it. I am so done.

I had really bad insomnia again last night, but as many people before me have said, getting up tired sure beats getting up hungover. BLAH!

I am starting to be more productive too. I can't wait til the exhaustion goes away and the productivity kicks in full force.

I am looking into different programs for support. I'm not sure about AA, but I'm not opposed to going to a meeting. I am planning on calling an old friend who has been going for years and seeing if I can tag along with her.

Other than that, coming here has really been SUPER helpful, and it's time for me to start visiting other threads and offering support to other people struggling like me..

stepping

Keep at it Poppie!!

I am on Day 2 AGAIN! I feel like a broken record but as long as we keep trying we will get it eventually! Don't look back just keep on moving forward!!! I am determined to end the madness now! We are in control of that! Hang in there. Each day will get better!

hector

Good for you. We can't keep it unless we give it away, meaning we enhance our own sobriety by helping others with their sobriety. Most people take several months to figure that out.

penny74

How can you work feeling like that ?

Sapling

That's a good plan...She must have been going for years for a reason. Just keep an open mind and listen. That worked for me.