Gigi1986

Today has been my second day in a row sober. It was kind of difficult this evening. I even have alcohol at my house. But, I've made it through. I have been thinking a lot about my situation and what brought me to where I am today. I got pregnant (unexpectedly) and married. So, I was thrown into this life of being a parent which I was not ready for... (would never change it now for anything!) My husband has been gone working in the Middle East pretty much the whole time since we got married. I was alone pregnant and I've been alone most of my daughters life. And on top of all of that we've had some marital problems (he messed up... not me) So, I was extremely hurt by that. I know I have situational depression because of everything... and I think the same applies for my drinking. I'm bored (stay at home mom), I'm lonely, it can be stressful to have a toddler with you LITERALLY 24/7 (with no help) and I've been hurt emotionally many times by someone who should never hurt me. Since I've finally received treatment for my depression, I'm doing a lot better on that aspect. Just ready to kick the drinking every night habit. You know- it doesn't really affect my life negatively (yet) besides that I don't like that I do it and I know it's too much. I probably have the equivalent of 6-7 drinks every evening, I'm just guessing? But, I get up every morning with my daughter and take great care of her and my household. I'm in school (on-line classes) and doing great. But, I don't want to be this influence on my daughter- in a few short years she will know exactly what's going on. Ah, anyways. Just rambling on here. Hope everyone is doing well!!

Dee74

Hi Gigi
I was stuck at home alone a lot too, for different reasons (disability)

I drank a lot for something to do and for boredom...gradually it took over my life, so you're smart to address it now

When I quit I changed a lot of things about my life - I joined up here, I reconnected with old friends, I started up new interest and hobbies...

I'm never bored now and I never feel like a drink would be something I'd like to do...it really is possible to change your life...I know you can do it too

D

Gigi1986

It's definitely hard when you are alone a lot and bored... 6-7 drinks probably doesn't sound like a lot to some of the people... but I'm a pretty small person. I weigh about 115 lbs and I pretty much always go with the eat only a small amount before you drink so you get a better buzz quicker. Trick of the trade, right? I just need to stop blaming it on my situation and take control of myself. I appreciate the support I've gotten on here, it has been really helpful!!!

sissy07

Welcome Gigi!

You will find SR a great source of support - someone is always here! Please keep us posted on how you are doing. Best wishes.

P.S. Throw away the booze in your house - you don't need that stuff around.

OCDDan

i like your to do list..

FlyerFan

Love your avatar Welcome to the forums.

jocata

Hey GiGi. Glad you joined up. I'm in Indiana too.

I can relate to the depression. Alcohol made my depression much worse. I drank out of boredom also, in the end I drank because I had to. Hopefully you can get a handle on it before you get to that point.

Keep posting and reading.

God bless.

BillyPilgrim

Hi Gigi, being alone and bored is an easy way to slip into regular drinking, I know I did. Now you have made the decision to stop, use every resource that can help you , SR is great, and I am sure you will recover

ArgentOfSilvae

Congrats on day 2 Gigi, keep it up

ownmybehavior

Welcome Gigi. So glad you are here.

Reading others stories strengthens my resolve and gives me hope. I'm grateful to have found this forum.

Good luck.