1st day in the treatment center
 

I went to my first session yesterday at the treatment facility. I'm in an intense outpatient program for depression and anxiety.

It went pretty well, just kind of feeling my way. It was a group setting just like an AA meeting. We did some meditating, coping skills worksheets, and shared experiences, etc. I had a physical with the medical doc. there. I met one-on-one with multiple counselors, asking questions about my history, medications, drug and alcohol usage, etc,etc.

They are probably going to adjust my meds some, I think I'll find that out today.

I did discover that even though my depression and anxiety are pretty bad, it could be so much worse. Kinda helps put things into perspective.

I look forward to going today. I want to get this under control and get on with my life.

Thanks all for your support.

God bless.

I'm glad it went well for you. I hope you have a great day today.

Good to hear!!! Have a great day and keep us updated. :)

Good Luck it sound as if you are in a good place for recovery

Good job! :)

Jocota, That sounds wonderful. You should get really close to your group in that situation. I hope you'll really open up and trust the group and counselors. Sounds like it was an overall good experience for you! I am so glad.

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So glad its going well Jocata! Thanks for keeping us updated!! Lind

thanks for checking in Jocata - glad it's going well :)

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Very good to hear from you - been thinking of you Jocata.

Way to go Jocata, we are here to support you :ring

Try to keep an open mind and accept what's offered.

Wishing you the best.

Bob R.

Awesome to read, Jocata. All the best to you!

Thinking of you as well Jocata, and glad to hear your first day went well!

Thanks for checking in!!!! I wish you all the best....you are doing the right (and brave) thing. Give it all you've got!

Hey everyone. Thank you for your support.
Day 2 done. I'm finding my moods are pretty stable while at therapy. It's when I get home and my children are climbing the walls that I start to come unglued. I am really struggling being at home. I used to not be like that. Sure, there were days when it's really crazy and tough to deal with being a parent, but for the most part I could handle it. But now, I feel like I am going thru the roof. Tonight I took the dog down to the river for a walk for awhile just to gather myself. But when I got back home, the anxiety skyrocketed again.

Tomorrow in therapy we are going to learn some coping skills, which I desparately need!
I'm going to ask the psych. about changing meds or doses to. The anxiety I feel just seems much deeper than using only coping skills only. Something physiological going on or not going on, if that makes sense. That's what I'm there for, to try to figure out what's going on and find some solutions.

I know the solution that WILL NOT work is to drink or use a drug. For so long that was my way to deal with any problem I had. I'm sure it's going to take some time to reprogram my body and mind. I guess I need new "software."

God bless.

Take care jocata :e100:

so glad you are where you are

Got the first week done at treatment. Learned a few things. Started doing some journaling and meditation. Definately need practice at the meditation. It's very hard for me to clear my mind for more than a few seconds at a time. I'm trying to concentrate on my breathing in and out for the most part.

I've met some wonderful people in my group. Many are going through the same mental challenges I am. It's good to know that I'm not alone with everything. Depression has a way of making you feel isolated and alone. If you have never had the deep, deep type, words alone can't describe it. I know I can learn to deal with it with some help. Just another challenge to overcome.

The anxiety is a rough one too. The last couple of days I have noticed an improvement. However, I think I am developing TMJ from clenching my jaw so much. Makes my whole head hurt.

Through all of this, I can say that I have not wanted to turn to a drink or drug. When the thought crosses my mind, I just think of the consequences. I can conjure up those feelings I had the last time I used and drank, and it makes my stomach turn. Those feeling of guilt and remorse will flood in. That's all I need to persuade me not to pick up.
Thank God for that!

God bless.

thanks for the update Jocata - glad to hear you're doing ok :)

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Hey Jocata!! Hang in there and keep us posted. You are in my prayers! You will get to the bottom of this and start feeling much better! It's just going to take a little time. These doctors know what they are doing! HUGS!