invisibledrunk

As a touring musician , without family support and really nothing else
i lapsed back into drinking,
but managed to be sober for months because of this forum
i wrote this song for you all


don't be a hero and try to look me up, i dont need supportive words, i just hope your recovery goes better than mine.

Lyrics:

familiar demons,
they follow me
interrupting reason
with uncertainty

cry out to you all
to get into me
you'll be disappointed
with what i ceased to be

pour out your poison
and go where you're supposed to be
in loving arms of
friends and family

ignore all the pain that it has
brought to you,
and listen to a pattern
that is now in view

take it our leave it
run from home..
you're left with vices
all alone..
out of excuses
and on the phone
this call just may be your last one

losing faith in myself
losing hope ,
everyone who loses hope has something to gain

________

see you all on tour, betcha i dont remember

Dee74

don't give up - this isn't the end of the battle - it's just one episode.
I tried for 15 years before I got it right.

Maybe instead of an outright failure, it's best to look at this as a sign you need to regroup and rethink your strategy?

Think about what you might need to add, or what you might need to change.

You can do this

D

BillyPilgrim

Yes, keep going, the drink will battle you, it doesnt like to be excluded, but you can beat it. I have had lapses, and just gone back and built a stronger fighting machine

Djelen

I like your post and will try to remember this if I stray ....only on Day 4 and my first serious attempt to give up but that is sound advice!

invisbledrunk - must be so hard for you with what you do for a living and without any family support but you say you were sober for months?? That is awesome. I am impressed. Please, please keep trying?

quitforme79

I agree with Dee invisible, don't give up...this can be just a tiny setback for you (if you let it). I have no support where I am living but therapy and SR and my supportive friends in different states support me by phone. I know it's tough, I have "failed" too but if you never quit trying, you can get what you really want--sobriety. Hang in there and keep posting.

FlyerFan

You didn't fail you just relapsed. It happens to all of us, sometimes a lot. You have to keep trying and stay positive.

sugarbear1

glad you're alive. start again!

desertsong

It is never too late to start again. I myself have had plenty of "Day 1's". Read the quote at the bottom of my signature ... then dust yourself off and try again. Every day holds the promise of a sober life.

Lind

You are not a failure Invisable!! You are human!!! We have all been down this path!! You can do this!! Lind

BillyPilgrim

[QUOTE=Djelen;3263008]I like your post and will try to remember this if I stray ....only on Day 4 and my first serious attempt to give up but that is sound advice!

Hey Djelen, I am only on day 5 this time round, but this time round I am going to win