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new here and to recovery
The name's Jason, and I'm an alcoholic.
I'm a struggling alcoholic, father of two beautiful girls. Married for almost 2 years.
Yesterday and today have been especially hard in my recovery (today is day 6). I've been short-tempered and going the extra mile to make excuses to drink and/or miss meetings. In fact, today is the first day in almost a week I haven't made it to a meeting.
Sitting here tonight I find myself at a loss. I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. I see so many happy people that are deep in recovery, and I just don't see how it will fit into my life.
I'm really struggling tonight for sure. I have a couple people's phone numbers, but no sponsor yet.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and briefly introduce myself. By the grace of God I wandered across this site tonight. I look forward to being a part of such a large and great group of people.
I'm a struggling alcoholic, father of two beautiful girls. Married for almost 2 years.
Yesterday and today have been especially hard in my recovery (today is day 6). I've been short-tempered and going the extra mile to make excuses to drink and/or miss meetings. In fact, today is the first day in almost a week I haven't made it to a meeting.
Sitting here tonight I find myself at a loss. I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. I see so many happy people that are deep in recovery, and I just don't see how it will fit into my life.
I'm really struggling tonight for sure. I have a couple people's phone numbers, but no sponsor yet.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and briefly introduce myself. By the grace of God I wandered across this site tonight. I look forward to being a part of such a large and great group of people.
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Join Date: Jan 2012
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It's a really great place to find. I myself stumbled on it while searching for withdrawl tips and it has made a big impact on my way to getting clean and how I am going to stay that way. Why not call one of those numbers you got?
You can do this
You can do this
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Welcome Jason 
I didn't know how recovery would fit into my life either...I just took it a day at a time
As it turned out it was kinda the other way around - my life ended up fitting into my recovery - it's just a part of me now - it's not a chore or something I feel forced into
I'm sure you'll get to that point too
You'll find a lot of support here
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I didn't know how recovery would fit into my life either...I just took it a day at a time
As it turned out it was kinda the other way around - my life ended up fitting into my recovery - it's just a part of me now - it's not a chore or something I feel forced into
I'm sure you'll get to that point too
You'll find a lot of support here
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Originally Posted by JasonD207 
The name's Jason, and I'm an alcoholic.
I'm a struggling alcoholic, father of two beautiful girls. Married for almost 2 years.
Yesterday and today have been especially hard in my recovery (today is day 6). I've been short-tempered and going the extra mile to make excuses to drink and/or miss meetings. In fact, today is the first day in almost a week I haven't made it to a meeting.
Sitting here tonight I find myself at a loss. I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. I see so many happy people that are deep in recovery, and I just don't see how it will fit into my life.
I'm really struggling tonight for sure. I have a couple people's phone numbers, but no sponsor yet.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and briefly introduce myself. By the grace of God I wandered across this site tonight. I look forward to being a part of such a large and great group of people.
I'm a struggling alcoholic, father of two beautiful girls. Married for almost 2 years.
Yesterday and today have been especially hard in my recovery (today is day 6). I've been short-tempered and going the extra mile to make excuses to drink and/or miss meetings. In fact, today is the first day in almost a week I haven't made it to a meeting.
Sitting here tonight I find myself at a loss. I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. I see so many happy people that are deep in recovery, and I just don't see how it will fit into my life.
I'm really struggling tonight for sure. I have a couple people's phone numbers, but no sponsor yet.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and briefly introduce myself. By the grace of God I wandered across this site tonight. I look forward to being a part of such a large and great group of people.
Well...You're here....And not drinking...I hope. Why not use one of those numbers...I was pretty antsy in my first week not drinking...But I was going to three meetings a day....I was grabbing on tight. If you are going to go the AA route......I guess you just have to get busy. How bad do you want it?
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Welcome Jason - Congrats on 6 days!
Getting through the first days/weeks isn't easy without a lot of support. I came here a lot and it really helped. I also had to remind myself over and over again what the consequences of drinking would be for me.
It really does get easier, though...... Glad you're here!
Getting through the first days/weeks isn't easy without a lot of support. I came here a lot and it really helped. I also had to remind myself over and over again what the consequences of drinking would be for me. It really does get easier, though...... Glad you're here!
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Originally Posted by Sapling
Well...You're here....And not drinking...I hope. Why not use one of those numbers...I was pretty antsy in my first week not drinking...But I was going to three meetings a day....I was grabbing on tight. If you are going to go the AA route......I guess you just have to get busy. How bad do you want it?
It's pushing midnight here, all my girls are asleep... I can't sleep for poo lately anyway, so I figure why not coffee?? Yes, I want it. I NEED it. It is time for change. I just need to get out of the fog that is my head and push forward and do what I know is right. Alcohol was destroying not only me, but my family as well. There is MUCH work to be done going forward. Browsing these forums and reading from the Big Book has helped me this evening. Tomorrow, when it is a more reasonable hour, I will call the numbers. And will make certain to hit a meeting. I close the restaurant tomorrow... I KNOW I'll need a meeting before that, and then these forums afterwards!
For today, I know my head will hit the pillow a sober man yet again. For that I am grateful.
Last edited by JasonD207; 01-30-2012 at 08:55 PM. Reason: wrote money instead of meeting, lol
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Originally Posted by JasonD207
I am drinking... COFFEE! It's pushing midnight here, all my girls are asleep... I can't sleep for poo lately anyway, so I figure why not coffee?? Yes, I want it. I NEED it. It is time for change. I just need to get out of the fog that is my head and push forward and do what I know is right. Alcohol was destroying not only me, but my family as well. There is MUCH work to be done going forward.
Browsing these forums and reading from the Big Book has helped me this evening. Tomorrow, when it is a more reasonable hour, I will call the numbers. And will make certain to hit a meeting. I close the restaurant tomorrow... I KNOW I'll need a meeting before that, and then these forums afterwards!
For today, I know my head will hit the pillow a sober man yet again. For that I am grateful.
It's pushing midnight here, all my girls are asleep... I can't sleep for poo lately anyway, so I figure why not coffee?? Yes, I want it. I NEED it. It is time for change. I just need to get out of the fog that is my head and push forward and do what I know is right. Alcohol was destroying not only me, but my family as well. There is MUCH work to be done going forward. Browsing these forums and reading from the Big Book has helped me this evening. Tomorrow, when it is a more reasonable hour, I will call the numbers. And will make certain to hit a meeting. I close the restaurant tomorrow... I KNOW I'll need a meeting before that, and then these forums afterwards!
For today, I know my head will hit the pillow a sober man yet again. For that I am grateful.
Keep that in mind!
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