6 months and I blew it
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Originally Posted by Zebra1275 
Soberred,
Thanks for the post. You had 6 months and you blew it. But today you helped me, by reminding me that vodka sucks. For that I am thankful, because sometimes I forget that.
I've had some long stretches of sobriety in the past, once had 5 1/2 years before I got complacent. The last time I drank vodka a few years ago I don't know what the hell happened. I took the cat to the vet for shots, for some reason I bought a bottle of vodka on the way home. So why did I do that, is taking the cat to the vet a trigger???
I finally realized I drink because I'm an alcoholic, no other reason is really needed. So, if I'm an alcoholic, where can I go for help? Light bulb flash - AA!
Thanks for the post. You had 6 months and you blew it. But today you helped me, by reminding me that vodka sucks. For that I am thankful, because sometimes I forget that.
I've had some long stretches of sobriety in the past, once had 5 1/2 years before I got complacent. The last time I drank vodka a few years ago I don't know what the hell happened. I took the cat to the vet for shots, for some reason I bought a bottle of vodka on the way home. So why did I do that, is taking the cat to the vet a trigger???
I finally realized I drink because I'm an alcoholic, no other reason is really needed. So, if I'm an alcoholic, where can I go for help? Light bulb flash - AA!
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Good morning, Soberred-
Your sincerity is strengthening, thank you for sharing. Dust yourself off and get back on the horse. My daughter is my accountabilty and voice of reason. She would be disappointed but not likely hurt. She would be encouraging and motivating. In your situation, I would probably resteady myself before I mentioned this occurance. A little time and distance will make you feel stronger and more resolved. Looking forward to hearing of your success!
Your sincerity is strengthening, thank you for sharing. Dust yourself off and get back on the horse. My daughter is my accountabilty and voice of reason. She would be disappointed but not likely hurt. She would be encouraging and motivating. In your situation, I would probably resteady myself before I mentioned this occurance. A little time and distance will make you feel stronger and more resolved. Looking forward to hearing of your success!
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My 22 year old has been my support system. Should I tell her about my slip? It is going to hurt her so badly.
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Originally Posted by soberred
That's the problem. I wasn't thinking of anything. I chose not to think of the consequences. 
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Originally Posted by soberred
I wasn't stressed. I wasn't upset. I had it in my mind that I was going to go buy a pint of vodka and I did.
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Originally Posted by Terminally Unique
Most people who return to drinking do so not necessarily when things get bad, but rather when things get normal. Something to keep in mind for the future.
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Originally Posted by Lost3000
Like the "committee" piping up in my head, saying, hey, see? You are ok, you can have a drink now!
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Originally Posted by Terminally Unique
I haven't heard that term in a while, but yes, "the committee" (ie, the Addictive Voice) will say anything and everything to get you to drink. Improved health and accumulated sober time are simply commodities to be cashed in for booze.
I view my committee as the devil side to me. You know, the angel on side of my shoulder and the devil on the other?
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Originally Posted by Terminally Unique
Most people who return to drinking do so not necessarily when things get bad, but rather when things get normal. Something to keep in mind for the future.
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Originally Posted by soberred
Yep. That's about right
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Thank you for reaching out and having the guts to post about your slip. I know that you have been through alot in the last several months and have grown alot. Learn from this and keep moving on in your sobriety. Hugs to you.
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Originally Posted by Zebra1275
Hey soberred, are you doing ok?
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Originally Posted by soberred
My 22 year old has been my support system. Should I tell her about my slip? It is going to hurt her so badly.
Good that you're still trying.
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Originally Posted by langkah
I'm curious...was that the one who had the dream? It's amazing to me sometimes the connections we have with our loved ones. Obsessing about drinking is no fun at all, hope that ends soon for you.
Good that you're still trying.
Good that you're still trying.
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