Day 2 again
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Day 2 again
Well here we go again =) Today is day 2 for me of the umpteenth try to stay sober. I just cant drink I know that, everyone around me knows that. I dont want just a couple beers, I want to get wasted! We are coming up on my dughters 1 year anniversary of being diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. Shw was diagnosed March 17th 2011...St Patricks Day...I think it was a sign but I ignored it and actually started drinking more. But I am serious this time. This may sound vain but i look like @#$% from drinking a 12 pack every other day I am only 31 years old and need to loose 30 lbs now from consuming a liquid Thanksgiving dinner every other night. I plan to get back into yoga and my vegetarian diet thats the only time i feel good. I am going to spend all my free time playing outside with my kids!!! Wish me luck..Oh and BTW I have 0 withdrawal symptoms I never do I freak myself out so bad worrying about them for the first 4 days never get any so I figure what the hell I dont have a problem so I have been journaling my fears about withdrawal so if I feel like opening a beer I can go back and look at the torment I put myself through.
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Glad you're back on the sober side!I like your idea of journaling. It's easy to forget the bad stuff when we start feeling in control again. The addicted side of us doesn't want to give up, but you can shut it down and not listen to it's "reasoning."
Better days ahead, so hang in there!:day6
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Well I made it through the weekend....
Got up at 5:30 and went to the gym this morning. I will have to keep busy tonight as this is day 5 and I feel GREAT >insert alcoholic thinking> "I feel so good why don't I reward myself with a hangover"
. I must say my worst withdrawal symptom is irritability I also quit smoking last Thursday also as beer n cigs go together like PB&J. Just wanted to check in and let everyone know I made it and A sincere Thank You for all the support it really helps!!!!
Got up at 5:30 and went to the gym this morning. I will have to keep busy tonight as this is day 5 and I feel GREAT >insert alcoholic thinking> "I feel so good why don't I reward myself with a hangover". I must say my worst withdrawal symptom is irritability I also quit smoking last Thursday also as beer n cigs go together like PB&J. Just wanted to check in and let everyone know I made it and A sincere Thank You for all the support it really helps!!!!
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Hey 3030!! Great news... the gym certainly helps to focus the good feelings of accomplishment. Do you think it's too early to quit smoking? Unless smoking compels you to drink...
Keep up the good fight!
Keep up the good fight!
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I only smoke when I drink so why not? I would occasionally have a cigarette on a day I wasnt hungover but i'm weird the next day after drinking and smoking the smell of cigarettes made me want to throw up im assuming because I would smoke a pack of them and drink a 12pack. I am starting to realize I dont have a very addictive personality because I really havent craved either one. What I do miss is the feeling of being buzzed and relaxed I was very laid back after my 6th beer and nothing really bothered me and now its like someone has tuned a bright light on and im seeing all the cobwebs for the first time (make any sense?) Just a side note I have been drinking a 12 pack or more every other day or a couple days in a row for 5 years now I quit cold turkey both alcohol and cigarettes when I was pregnant with my son and the year after while I breastfed but slowly picked up the habit with full force.
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