Each day getting one step closer to "normal" thinking.
Powerless over Alcohol
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Each day getting one step closer to "normal" thinking.
Good morning, it is a beautiful one here. For the snow has stopped and got about a half foot. A great morning of meditation and reading.
For today for me to fully grasp this new way of living and AA , constantly have to think things threw. I have to learn to think straight. Most importantly I have to learn to change from my alcoholic thinking to sober thinking. I must learn that new way of looking at things. Before coming in to the program I wanted that artificial life of excitement and all the insanity that went along with my drinking career. For that was the only life I knew and thought I was the normal way of my life. I did know I was an alcoholic and needed to drink just to function, but give in to the fact that , it was just the way it was and I would live till I died like that. But by the grace of my higher power , he/she/or it (I havent figured that all out yet, although I know there is a power greater than me. ) keep me alive and give me the thought to get sober. And know I look back and my life couldnt have become more abnormal. And today's question is put to me as "Am I changing from an abnormal thinker to a normal thinker."
Very slowly but yes I believe it is. It took many years to get here so I am always reminding myself , one little step at a time. And today is so much better than this day last year.
I also thought I would share this gem from a story "From experience, I have realized that I cannot go back and make a brand-new start.But through AA , I can start now and make a brand-new end." :ghug3
Everyone keep going moving to that beautiful new end just for today, one day at a time.
Good love , Inda(I have to do this LOL)
For today for me to fully grasp this new way of living and AA , constantly have to think things threw. I have to learn to think straight. Most importantly I have to learn to change from my alcoholic thinking to sober thinking. I must learn that new way of looking at things. Before coming in to the program I wanted that artificial life of excitement and all the insanity that went along with my drinking career. For that was the only life I knew and thought I was the normal way of my life. I did know I was an alcoholic and needed to drink just to function, but give in to the fact that , it was just the way it was and I would live till I died like that. But by the grace of my higher power , he/she/or it (I havent figured that all out yet, although I know there is a power greater than me. ) keep me alive and give me the thought to get sober. And know I look back and my life couldnt have become more abnormal. And today's question is put to me as "Am I changing from an abnormal thinker to a normal thinker."
Very slowly but yes I believe it is. It took many years to get here so I am always reminding myself , one little step at a time. And today is so much better than this day last year.
I also thought I would share this gem from a story "From experience, I have realized that I cannot go back and make a brand-new start.But through AA , I can start now and make a brand-new end." :ghug3
Everyone keep going moving to that beautiful new end just for today, one day at a time.
Good love , Inda(I have to do this LOL)
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