A Very Dark day but there is light..
That first month can be pretty tough - but you did it!
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Join Date: Oct 2011
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Oh Dear its me again 
Well its 60 days since that horrible night at the hospital.
Just want to say that I find this very exciting , I have had some really down days but northing that's going to make me go back to being alcohells bitch for the rest of my days.
Just a few things that I have posted in the Jan thread.
Feeling Tired naturally is so good.
Losing weight is also good. 9lbs
Being calmer and looking better is also very very good.
My fatter wallet feels very nice.
But the best I just like being "me" Because all my life since I was 15 for 31 years I have drank, got drunk and suffered horrendous hangovers, what a total waste really gripes on me the waste of all that time.
I really like learning to deal with things in a natural state, everything is all so new, sounds crazy but I really do love it.
Well its 60 days since that horrible night at the hospital.
Just want to say that I find this very exciting , I have had some really down days but northing that's going to make me go back to being alcohells bitch for the rest of my days.
Just a few things that I have posted in the Jan thread.
Feeling Tired naturally is so good.
Losing weight is also good. 9lbs
Being calmer and looking better is also very very good.
My fatter wallet feels very nice.
But the best I just like being "me" Because all my life since I was 15 for 31 years I have drank, got drunk and suffered horrendous hangovers, what a total waste really gripes on me the waste of all that time.
I really like learning to deal with things in a natural state, everything is all so new, sounds crazy but I really do love it.
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Join Date: Jan 2012
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Wow DD. I remember reading this when you first posted it. It was the night of my last drink. I remember thinking yeah, I've done the same thing.
I've left my husband with the brunt of taking care of my daughter when she was sick numerous times b/c I selfishly "checked out" of my responsibilities.
Luckily, there weren't any hospital trips but I would've been useless if that were to happen. I began to think of all these what if scenarios. What if the house caught on fire? Etc. It left me feeling so vulnerable & insecure. I saw how powerless I had allowed alcohol to make me. That night I made up my mind, it would not destroy me.
Thank you for being so brutally honest that night & lighting a fire in me to fight back also.
You rock! Congrats on 60 days!
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I've left my husband with the brunt of taking care of my daughter when she was sick numerous times b/c I selfishly "checked out" of my responsibilities.
Luckily, there weren't any hospital trips but I would've been useless if that were to happen. I began to think of all these what if scenarios. What if the house caught on fire? Etc. It left me feeling so vulnerable & insecure. I saw how powerless I had allowed alcohol to make me. That night I made up my mind, it would not destroy me.
Thank you for being so brutally honest that night & lighting a fire in me to fight back also.
You rock! Congrats on 60 days!
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I somehow missed your original post, Dark Days. Wow—it's great to come across it and be able to skip ahead to the happy ending!
Actually, not an ending at all, is it? Much more like a beginning, as you noted. I hope your little one is doing well. She's very lucky to have you back.
Actually, not an ending at all, is it? Much more like a beginning, as you noted. I hope your little one is doing well. She's very lucky to have you back.
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