Sober Second Thoughts
 

I was full of hubris after my first 30 days, but now around Day 40, I'm beginning to realize that I still have the same problems that impelled me to drink.

I'm not going to go back to medicating myself with alcohol. Instead, I'm going to try to heal myself so that I can function without needing to numb myself. I may be aiming high.

But to go on with, I'm reminding myself of traditional AA wisdom - First Things First, Easy Does It, and so on (I've always been too shy to attend AA meetings but I've been around AAers enough to pick up some of its wisdom) - reminding myself of my Rational Recovery Big Plan (I'm never drinking again, and I'm never going to change my mind) and getting counseling to try to heal the parts of myself that find it painful to live sober.

I'm a little frightened, but also excited at the prospect of a life informed by something other than pain, and fear. And I can't think of anything more worthwhile to attempt to achieve.

Bravo! It sounds like you have a courageous, winning approach.

Thanks for your example.

You have a great attitude Riel. It's true, just because we get sober doesn't mean everything's coming up roses! Same old bills, work, relationships, stress...all carry on. But we can choose a better way to deal now!

Congratulations on your sober time :)

Brought a smile to my face - that's how you do it, Riel! :ghug3

Yes, stopping drinking doesn't solve the problems right away. There are usually issues that we have to deal with in order to get our lives on track. Good for you for recognizing this!

Great attitude, we all need commitment
To get us through the tough times.

I've used this before but I think it works...when I got into recovery, a metaphorical tide went out and I stopped drowning...but I saw the great mass of driftwood and debris my drinking and drugging had been covering up.

It took me a while to clean that debris up...but I did it...one piece at a time :)

you can too Riel - congrats on 40 days :)

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Thanks everyone.

I'm lucky that I have a chance to clean up the mess I've made, because I didn't necessarily have another chance coming to me.

Riel,
I'm in the same spot you are. The initial "novelty" of sobriety has wore off. I'm now in the process of dealing with my demons that made me feel that alcohol needed to be a central theme in my life. This is the hard part.

thanks for the post
 

1 year 6 months sober yesterday, 4 months off crack today, still anxious, neverous, scared, worried...., but I'm am better off not using