Crying....
 

I'm in tears right now.

I don't know why, really. I am craving my weekend beers (anywhere from 3-8 at any given time). I'm also going down on my depression meds. I have a friend I talk to online sometimes who isn't on tonight, and I miss talking to him. My husband is going to be dealing with his own emotional stuff tonight- his grandfather died today.

So I'll be hugging him and crying along, for a different, selfish reason.

Sorry, just had to get it off my chest.

I am sorry to hear of your husbands lose.

My prayers are with you and him. I dont know you but thank you for coming and sharing.

You're not selfish. You are trying to make your life better and it is hard.

Maybe the chat room would help? I can't use it - my iPad doesn't support it. Which I wish would be fixed. Hang in there you are just taking care of you.

Please accept my condolences...

This is the place to get stuff off your chest, no need to say sorry...

Hello and so sorry for your loss! I remember in early sobriety tears streaming down my face while cleaning up the dinner dishes cause I wanted my evening vodka. For me it was the only thing I knew would temporarily numb me. The only reliable thing in my life....I thought!! Things got so out of controll and ugly and Im on the uphill climb back to a responsible human being. Im sober today and everything I thought alcohol was is a straight out lie! Your not selfish at all for changing your life this is the normal process of sobriety and hold on a second...your doing it!!!

Sorry for your loss, ainsley. I cried more in early sobriety, too. Sometimes for no real good reason. Hang in there..it'll get better. Glad you came here to get it off your chest. :ghug3

They are dead right Ainsley, i'm on day eleven now, and days two and eight were horrendous for me. I cried constantly. In fact it was so bad for so long, i remember comning on here to celebrate a dry day! +it does get easier, i promise you darling, why not think about it this way..

Its your bodies way of helping to speed flush the toxic from your body..

Hang in the sweetie.. Your in a good place with good people. Lean on them. Xxx

and i too offer condolances to you both. *hugs*

I cried SO MUCH in early recovery. But a real turning point for me was when I cried one night for the depressed, lost alcoholic I once was. I could see 'her' in my minds eye and I felt so much compassion for her. It was very surreal but it was when I felt like I fully detached myself from the alcoholic in me.

condolences to your husband.

Thanks all. I feel better today. Hope you all are having a good day too.

Ainsley, I cried a lot too. And, for me, it was welcome. In the last year of my drinking, I really felt nothing - very little emotion. The tears were welcome. I'm glad you feel better today.

I'm sorry for your and your husband's loss.

I have to say that 8 days in, you can actually feel your body recovering and flushing itself out. It's almost like I can't wait for tomorrow to see how much better I feel. That in and of itself is motivation to stick with it. Good luck!