This time I am going to make it
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Join Date: May 2011
Location: Virginia
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This time I am going to make it
Hi. I went 3 months without a single drink. Basically May, June & July 2011. Since August I have been drunk. My business has suffered tremendously and my marriage is now finished. I am separated. I have caused so much destruction with my selfish drinking. My home is a pig sty. My office is a mess. I cant believe I have the audacity to feel sorry for myself. I have many obstacles in my life now with work, marriage, a law suit etc. but the #1 thing that troubles me is my fear of quitting. It seems impossible to face.
I am doing it now. I will keep you posted. I love this board and the genuine support.
I am doing it now. I will keep you posted. I love this board and the genuine support.
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Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Austin, Texas
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Yeah, been there. I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I went to rehab at 35, sober 8 years, drank again, sober 9 years, drank again for 4 years and have been sober this time since August 10, 2011. A lot of us have lost alot. But there definitely is hope. Since I quit in August a lot of things are straightening out. Not everything ofcourse, but at least now I have what mental faculties I have left to deal with them. It is so hard at first because when you begin to not drink everything hits you head on and the realization of what you have been through, done and lost is devastating. Know that not drinking is the key - and it gets better. I am so sorry. Take care. 
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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I did all the above...as you describe it...I didn't think I could be so helpless and so hopeless at the same time. Just totally lost control of my life. I was scared to quit drinking too. My fear was I was afraid at failing at yet another thing in life. And I went to an AA meeting. It gave me hope...It worked for me. Find something that works for you...Nobody deserves to go through life like that.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
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Welcome back, soberforbaby -
Sounds like you've been through a lot - I'm so sorry....... As they say in AA, we're not bad people - we're just sick people trying to get well. I'm glad you've chosen to get sober again - get all the support you can and stay close to SR!
Sounds like you've been through a lot - I'm so sorry....... As they say in AA, we're not bad people - we're just sick people trying to get well. I'm glad you've chosen to get sober again - get all the support you can and stay close to SR!
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Ireland
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Hi there
Can I recommend a book to you called 'I'll quit tomorrow' by Paul Campbell. It is written by an Irish guy that through drinking lost his family and business and then how he built his life up again. You may be able to relate to a lot of it.
Wishinhg you all the very best.
Can I recommend a book to you called 'I'll quit tomorrow' by Paul Campbell. It is written by an Irish guy that through drinking lost his family and business and then how he built his life up again. You may be able to relate to a lot of it.
Wishinhg you all the very best.
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