The end of a perfectly bad drinking career
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Day 20...back at work, and feeling pretty good. As I was driving into work, i was reflecting on the past, and how much Alcohol had affected my life, in so many negative ways. I know things would have been drastically different now, had i not become so enmeshed with Alcohol. It literally overcame me, or I became it..Life is complicated enough, without having alcohol messing with my brains synapses, without the confusion, without the stress, worry, hiding...I know i dont miss the shakes, the sickness, the nauseous feeling..and then i wonder, why did I ever get to that place? The answer is simple..I am an alcoholic...That doesn't mean I have to suffer the effects of being an active alcholic though..and one day at a time, I am resolved to rebuild my sanity, my life, my relationships, my future....peace.
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So this is day 21...how cool is that? 3 weeks sober...and life really does improve. I wake up with energy, i dont dread the day, things make a little more sense each day, i feel more rested and free, and i dont have to wonder/worry about what happened last night. A guy could get used to this..
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Good on ya!!! I agree, the best thing about being sober (so far) is waking up in the morning with a clear head, feeling good, and not having to ask the inevitable question: "What the hell did I DO last night?!" What a relief.
Keep at it - you're doing beautifully. It's been very inspiring to follow your progress.
Keep at it - you're doing beautifully. It's been very inspiring to follow your progress.
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Okay, i know people dont need a day to day blow out, but today is 22 for me. Last night was Saturday night, and although it felt a little weird not drinking and going to bed a 9pm, it didnt feel bad either. I think about the money i have wasted on alcohol and drugs, the brain damage i have done...but mostly i think about how much of my life I have wasted in the fog, how much more i could have done clean and sober. Its not really like eating at me, but it is regretful. I am glad to be walking out of that fog now, that i still have enough life left to enjoy it...that i am not slowly killing myself any longer. I want to live, i want to appreciate, and that just doesn't happen when intoxicated. Thank you..peace..
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Well, this seems to be going well. Today is Day 23..and I still have no inclining for tinkling..Sure, i have thought about Alcohol, and I probably always will, but its like thinking about a Bully who kicked my butt every day for so long, I just kind of wonder if that Bully will kick my butt again today, but then I remember, I dont have to go down his street at all. I like waking up not feeling all beat up, I like feelings more now...I know the Bully must be pissed at me, and if i try to go down his street again, I will get even a bigger beating than last time..Okay, he can own that street, I get it, stay off his turf...That street is all dark and gloomy anyhow, i have no friends on that street, and spring is coming to my neighbourhood, I can even catch some sun rays occasionally on my own street..peace
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Originally Posted by losteverything 
Well, this seems to be going well. Today is Day 23..and I still have no inclining for tinkling..Sure, i have thought about Alcohol, and I probably always will, but its like thinking about a Bully who kicked my butt every day for so long, I just kind of wonder if that Bully will kick my butt again today, but then I remember, I dont have to go down his street at all. I like waking up not feeling all beat up, I like feelings more now...I know the Bully must be pissed at me, and if i try to go down his street again, I will get even a bigger beating than last time..Okay, he can own that street, I get it, stay off his turf...That street is all dark and gloomy anyhow, i have no friends on that street, and spring is coming to my neighbourhood, I can even catch some sun rays occasionally on my own street..peace
I think you will love & relate to this AA speaker tape, especially his graphic story/analogy about being a fighter & getting his ass kicked many times in the ring & how everyone slowly left the auditorium while he continually battled this smart demon (alcohol) with his family in the front row. Its awesome!
Don C. from Colorado Springs, CO : The XXXIII Gopher State Roundup in Bloomington, MN : AA Speaker Tapes
All of the best in your recovery
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You've inspired ME!
Your posts have set me back on course, I slipped up and after reading your inspirational story I am 1 week sober and going strong. Thanks!!!!!!
Keep up the good work your not doing this alone.
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Keep up the good work your not doing this alone.
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Hello everyone who reads these simple posts. Day 25 today, still feeling it..by it I mean positive, energetic, more wholesome, more optimistic. I haven't had any real cravings at all, i guess its like just missing occasionally something familiar. I am still dealing with the fallout of quitting drinking, and Doctors who seem way too intrusive and overbearing, but all i need to do is the next best thing, and the real solution is so obvious: Dont pick up.. Have a great day, all..
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Originally Posted by losteverything
Hello everyone who reads these simple posts. Day 25 today, still feeling it..by it I mean positive, energetic, more wholesome, more optimistic. I haven't had any real cravings at all, i guess its like just missing occasionally something familiar. I am still dealing with the fallout of quitting drinking, and Doctors who seem way too intrusive and overbearing, but all i need to do is the next best thing, and the real solution is so obvious: Dont pick up.. Have a great day, all..
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Originally Posted by losteverything
Hello everyone who reads these simple posts. Day 25 today, still feeling it..by it I mean positive, energetic, more wholesome, more optimistic. I haven't had any real cravings at all, i guess its like just missing occasionally something familiar. I am still dealing with the fallout of quitting drinking, and Doctors who seem way too intrusive and overbearing, but all i need to do is the next best thing, and the real solution is so obvious: Dont pick up.. Have a great day, all..
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Originally Posted by losteverything
Hello everyone who reads these simple posts. Day 25 today, still feeling it..by it I mean positive, energetic, more wholesome, more optimistic.
So happy for you, more positive energy inbound your way now ;-)
Take Care ~ NB
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