EDHARLEY

I find I keep asking myself this.. I want several things one to get back in shape.. that is my greatest motivation for this (I thought). I work from home and drink all the time.. I should actually say I drink from home (I mostly drink alone now) and work sometime. I have been terriably depressed. I know now that I have a huge problem and every moment of every day I ask myself whats next what am I going to do. I dont enjoy doing anything and I am alone all day every day. I have looked into hobbies but nothing sticks out. I dont have a lot of money and have been telling myself that I am kind of just burning time till things get better. I have enough time to focus on exercise but I choose to start drinking at about noon and dream about better days to come. I keep asking myself what I am going to do. Does anyone else feel this way or am I just crazy.

Nirvana1

First off you need to stop drinking. You won't know what you are capable of, what you like to do, or what is out there for you until you get a clear head. Start working a recovery program asap and meet some other sober people face-to-face. That's where you will see some of the results you're looking for.

Anna

Alcohol is a depressant. There is a chance your depression will clear up if you stop drinking. If you find you are still depressed after a few months sober, then you could probably talk to your dr about your depression.