soberbrah

im an alcoholic binge drinker, can someone explain to me why i convince myself after any sort of time of sobriety that I am overreacting and going to far by AA etc.. and then end up finding myself right back where I started

I guess its because I compare myself to others and dont experience shakes and other hard core symptoms of daily drunk

my mind is constantly playing tricks on myself, saying that "if i change this this or this" it wont be an issue

ovrock

I am having the same problem. In the end, you gotta know urself. Nobody can convince you who you are. Alot of times they are the ones in denial, when u are trying to come clean... It's a frustrating phenomenom...

soberbrah

whatup sober brethren

also just got put on painkillers for surgery, is this going to compromise dat dere sobriety?

ovrock

Not and expert on these issues at all, as I am still learning the ropes. But IMHO, I do not believe that being put on painkillers for a medical procedure is compromising your sobriety... But don't quote me on that...

Dee74

I was a good rationaliser...I was also very good at instant gratification *now*...and worrying about the debris/consequences later.

It took me many years to accept that my relationship with alcohol was bad - and it always would be.

I had to accept I could have the life I wanted and be the man I wanted to be - or I could drink. It's one or the other, IMO.

As far as prescriptions meds go - I assume you have no history of abuse with the meds...as long as you've been honest & open with your Dr about your other addictive history, and as long as you remain vigilant, I can't see it compromises your sobriety

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soberbrah

i agree with the either that or drink, and with me once i take a sip, the drinking seems rationally the better option

Waterforme

I can relate to this big time. I'm also a binge/bender drinker... Seems like I've been at that "never again!" point about a million times, but after a week or two when I feel healthy and normal I forget all about the last drunk and eventually would drink again. It's a horrible way to live constantly hopping on and off the wagon like a roller coaster.

Scolova

I too am\was a binge drinker. I never got a DUI, never went to jail over drinking, but other than that my life had become a complete mess because of it. I hope you can stick with it, the 'voice' will tell you exactly what you want to hear when you are at your weakest point. Stay strong.

soberbrah

two weeks strong brethren