Tendencies

I am sober now. But I know I could be drunk later. I'm not like the others.
I drink when I'm happy. If good things happen. I drink when I'm bored too.
Give me a drink when I'm blue. Then give me a lot more.

It's the end of my day. I'm all alone so let me drink. No reasons anymore. Just give me.

Checkout girls and boys. You've seen me at the liquor store buying every day. You know I have a problem. You don't say a thing. You just keep selling it to me. It's your job. Do you care that I smell? I care but I don't care. It's a strange mix of shame and anger that I feel as I buy my death a little at a time.

I've cried in frustration in the parking lot of the liquor store. 3 days sober. not able to make it any more. Drink. Go in and buy. FAIL. die some more.

I visit your house. Your an old friend. We drank a lot in college and after college. You seem to be able to handle it still. You used to have a problem it seemed. You seem ok old friend. I can't handle it. I don't know when I stopped being able to handle it.

When my heart broke. When my business failed. When he died and I thought it might be my fault. When I lost my friends. When I lost my family.

I'm still alone but I'm me again. I"m sober. Life is sweet. I forgot that. I may be heartbroken but the sun still comes up. I still come up. I have more life to live. I plan on living it.

I'm sober again.

freshstart57

This.

Scolova

Thank you, well done.

brokenopen

good read. i dig it.