So restless!
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Join Date: May 2011
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So restless! 
it's the time of day, football on (always reminds me of boring family functions), husband happily laying on the couch, son playing video games, dog exhausted from our 4ml walk and I wish I could have some wine. I'm sitting in front of the Chrstmas tree trying to get my mind off of this funk I've found myself in. I know alcohol won't make something magical happen I FEEL SO RESTLESS!!!!!!!I've read a ton today and I've been trying to be supportive on the boards to take my mind off things but still I'm tweaky. At least tomorrow I'll work and then do some shopping.
Some nights are just harder than others for me to feel peace and content. It is what it is.
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Drink some egg nog or some water. Sobriety is too important to lose to boredom.
Recovery takes time and the alcoholic mind will try it's hardest to get you to drink when you're least expecting it. Even though I don't celebrate xmas, I still see it as a special time of year for friends and family. Hold your head up and kick the alcoholic monster voice out the door and close the door
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PS: Pumpkin Egg Nog is awesome.
Recovery takes time and the alcoholic mind will try it's hardest to get you to drink when you're least expecting it. Even though I don't celebrate xmas, I still see it as a special time of year for friends and family. Hold your head up and kick the alcoholic monster voice out the door and close the door
.PS: Pumpkin Egg Nog is awesome.
. Pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks sounds good to me.
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Hi 1undone,
You will be so happy tomorrow that you didn't drink! You are listening to that AV....the craving will stop pretty soon, at least for awhile.
Gosh, I am picturing you there now - it sounds like my old life before I got divorced after 18 years, and moved across country to escape my abusive husband (who wasn't abusive 24/7). I remember those old days of sitting there with the newspaper, a football game on, my husband asleep on the couch, looking at the Christmas tree and being sober, feeling secure, and as happy as I could be then. I really do miss those times. So I guess what I am saying is look around and appreciate your blessings. And I don't mean that in a spiteful way at all - even though I am alone (got my dogs though, that is all I really need) I have to constantly remind myself of how lucky I am to be sober now and to have all the things that I have that so many people don't. Gratitude can not be underestimated (thanks, forum member least). I think all of us who woke up today without a hangover should be very grateful. I just still have to remind myself of that sometimes.
You will be so happy tomorrow that you didn't drink! You are listening to that AV....the craving will stop pretty soon, at least for awhile.
Gosh, I am picturing you there now - it sounds like my old life before I got divorced after 18 years, and moved across country to escape my abusive husband (who wasn't abusive 24/7). I remember those old days of sitting there with the newspaper, a football game on, my husband asleep on the couch, looking at the Christmas tree and being sober, feeling secure, and as happy as I could be then. I really do miss those times. So I guess what I am saying is look around and appreciate your blessings. And I don't mean that in a spiteful way at all - even though I am alone (got my dogs though, that is all I really need) I have to constantly remind myself of how lucky I am to be sober now and to have all the things that I have that so many people don't. Gratitude can not be underestimated (thanks, forum member least). I think all of us who woke up today without a hangover should be very grateful. I just still have to remind myself of that sometimes.
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I hope that you feel better tomorrow.
Recovery is hard, but, I found it reassuring that my 'down' days didn't go on and on like they did when I was drinking. A down day was usually followed by a good day and I started to count on that.
Recovery is hard, but, I found it reassuring that my 'down' days didn't go on and on like they did when I was drinking. A down day was usually followed by a good day and I started to count on that.
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Your not alone in ur funk as I am as well.
And you'd think with someone with 21 yrs.
sobriety that, that funk wouldnt pop up
any longer.
Well it does, but with our
recovery program in place we know that,
this too shall pass.
I sat outside this morning while my husband
was at work, enjoying the coolness in the air,
blue skies and leaves still floating down to the
ground.
All of a sudden i was filled with emotions and
tears began to flow down my cheeks. Then
thought to myself, hey I havent cried in a good
while now and just wondered why.
It's not that i long for a drink or anything like
that, but it could just be this time of the yr. I
dont especially like. Family, which Im not connected
to and havent for a long time now mainly because
they are not good for my recovery.
Christmas as a child wasnt especially good for
me even tho is seemed as normal to everyone
else. Dysfunction, physical and verbal abuse by
a sick parent destroyed my joy for the season.
However, when i had my own little family, I made
the holidays fun for them with all the trimmings
and a recovery program to follow and Faith and
guidance from above.
I dont like family gatherings and all the hoopla
that goes with it and I avoid it like a plague. Id
rather stay at home doing my own thing while
the others take part in the festivities.
However, it saddens me that i have these sad,
selfish feelings this time of the yr. So while
gazing up to the trees and blue skies, and tears
falling, i spoke to my HP and explained that
all I want to do is give myself and each sober
day to Him. To continue to have faith and belief
in Him with no cards or packages, but just whats
in my heart and to do His will by sharing my
experiences, strengths and hopes of my recovery
to others who still suffer with addiction.
I shared my feeling with my spouse later today
and apoligized for my unhappiness and mood
swings. He certainly understands with no appology
necessary.
He shared that my funk could possibly be part
of my menopause. Bingo, that's it...!!!! lol
Tomorrow is a new day and I'll be grateful
for being sober and saine this holiday season.
And you'd think with someone with 21 yrs.
sobriety that, that funk wouldnt pop up
any longer.
Well it does, but with our recovery program in place we know that,
this too shall pass.
I sat outside this morning while my husband
was at work, enjoying the coolness in the air,
blue skies and leaves still floating down to the
ground.
All of a sudden i was filled with emotions and
tears began to flow down my cheeks. Then
thought to myself, hey I havent cried in a good
while now and just wondered why.
It's not that i long for a drink or anything like
that, but it could just be this time of the yr. I
dont especially like. Family, which Im not connected
to and havent for a long time now mainly because
they are not good for my recovery.
Christmas as a child wasnt especially good for
me even tho is seemed as normal to everyone
else. Dysfunction, physical and verbal abuse by
a sick parent destroyed my joy for the season.
However, when i had my own little family, I made
the holidays fun for them with all the trimmings
and a recovery program to follow and Faith and
guidance from above.
I dont like family gatherings and all the hoopla
that goes with it and I avoid it like a plague. Id
rather stay at home doing my own thing while
the others take part in the festivities.
However, it saddens me that i have these sad,
selfish feelings this time of the yr. So while
gazing up to the trees and blue skies, and tears
falling, i spoke to my HP and explained that
all I want to do is give myself and each sober
day to Him. To continue to have faith and belief
in Him with no cards or packages, but just whats
in my heart and to do His will by sharing my
experiences, strengths and hopes of my recovery
to others who still suffer with addiction.
I shared my feeling with my spouse later today
and apoligized for my unhappiness and mood
swings. He certainly understands with no appology
necessary.
He shared that my funk could possibly be part
of my menopause. Bingo, that's it...!!!! lol
Tomorrow is a new day and I'll be grateful
for being sober and saine this holiday season.
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I know that unbalanced feeling. What I do is look up spiritual healing or guidance. I read until it fills the void of where I know I need to be. It gives me fuel to have something else in my head to think about. To know where I want to be.
My kids are grown and gone...no tree or trimmings, no bamboozlers or gajinglers just me and muh dog. Make a list of things you are grateful for -I bet sobriety will be high on that list and you don't want to screw that up.
My kids are grown and gone...no tree or trimmings, no bamboozlers or gajinglers just me and muh dog. Make a list of things you are grateful for -I bet sobriety will be high on that list and you don't want to screw that up.
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Not feeling as crazy as its 10 PM here the craving hours have past. I've been at this for 8 months now and I still have these horrible evenings of emptiness that bring on the desire to drink. I've had 2 relapses and basically I still have moments where I feel like I stopped drinking just yesterday.
I know it must get easier because there are so many people who have been successful.
I have other issues I'm working through so at least I'm doing this sober.
I know it must get easier because there are so many people who have been successful.
I have other issues I'm working through so at least I'm doing this sober.
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Join Date: Oct 2011
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Way to go on getting past that tough moment!!
I find now a days that I brew myself a cuppa, come on here and talk to my new family to help distract me.
I still feel that antsy, empty feeling but it helps a bit to fill the void.
I find now a days that I brew myself a cuppa, come on here and talk to my new family to help distract me.
I still feel that antsy, empty feeling but it helps a bit to fill the void.
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Been feeling the same way too the last couple of days. 23 days sober today. A good remedy is to take positive action, but sometimes my depression makes even that nearly impossible. Thank God for the community. If I can't do anything else, at least I can log on here and find supp0ort. An AA meeting will do the trick also.
God Bless.
God Bless.
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