mazza

Sigh..I did SO well..I was going SO well. My first attempt at giving up was easy for 6 weeks, regretfully I didnt listen when I should have. 'Stay away from temptation' everyone said, but i was going that great I thought I could manage it. On a few occasions I did..but it only took one slip up and I found that I was again finding more and more reasons TO drink than NOT drink.

OK. A lesson learned. So I am finding myself back at square one today, and probably drinking more in the last 2 months than I ever did which in itself worries me. Not every day, Ill even go a week without it, but when I drink Im drinking to get hammered..maybe to numb the pain of my failed attempt at quitting?

Regardless..Day 1 again today, and going back into it with a bit more of an open mind to triggers..

Glad to be back..

Dee74

sorry to hear of your struggles Mazza but glad you're back.
Do you plan anything different this time - any changes, more support?

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mazza

Definitely..

Im going to make sure I check in here at least once a day for motivation and inspiration. Avoid parties and concerts (what was I THINKING??) and just take 'one day at a time'. The fact I found it so easy when I first stopped worked as a negative in the end..with no struggle I found myself in a false sense of security. I am now more humbled about the whole thing. Its NOT easy at all!

Fenris

Glad you made it back. It's a pretty awful feeling to relapse, but try to think of it and use it as a learning experience. My recovery's had a fair bit of trial-and-error involved, finding out what works and what doesn't for me. And I don't mean to make relapses sound like they're no big deal -- plenty of people go out again and don't make it back -- but if you do make it back, I don't think it's useful to spend much time beating yourself up. Keep coming back.

--Fenris.

simplenoteasy

You're right, its not easy. I've found that I have to hammer home every day: I cannot pick up a drink. Glad you are back.