cleareyes

Well I have finally gotten there. Honestly I have no clue as to what really happened but I an sore head to toe, there is a hole in the wall on our basement steps and I have a knot on my head and a chipped front tooth. Nightmare!! I just went down to apologize to my husband and found out my baby girl saw it all happen and was so upset because she thought I was dead! ;(. I asked my husband to give me another chance and gave him all my credit cards. I just hate myself but am glad I'm still here. This is my final day one. I'm so ashamed to have put my family through this.

ANGELINA243

Day one is where recovery begins. Keep moving forward. We do recover.

Dee74

I'm sorry that happened clear eyes but I hope you can make this your last time too.
Welcome back

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SSIL75

Is inpatient an option for you?

least

I sincerely hope this is your last day one.

Threshold

Wow, yes. I can relate, and I know my kids can as well.

You are not alone in the degradation of addiction and you don't have to be alone in the journey of recovery. I am so glad that you came here. Stick around.

We do need to be reminded that we DO recover, and when our own supply of hope and courage is low there are people here who happily share theirs.

LookingUp23

Good luck with your recovery!! Last night was my first Saturday night without drinking since I first picked up alcohol. The feeling of waking up without a hangover and remembering everything from the night before is fantastic. You can do it.

I don't know much about any of this yet, But just want to send some positive energy your way. I will keep you and your family in mind today

EmeraldRose

Unfortunately, sometimes that's what it takes to make us realize...we really need to change...for good. Remember these feelings you hold right now...they will help to keep you sober.
I do understand how you feel...and I wish you peace and strength to make this your last day one.

Vantrina

Clear eyes your posting here is the first step in a new direction. Keep posting and read as much as you can. Take it slow even if you are taking things in ten minute blocks of time.

You have already taken the first positive steps in your new journey it is still early on Sunday morning and you have already accomplished something positive today. Best of luck to you.

Zebra1275

It's great that you want to get sober, so what's the game plan to make that happen?

blackjack72

hi cleareyes. Blackouts are scary...trust me I know. You're doing the right thing though. hopefully your husband will support you & stand by your side.

Stay strong.

Anna

Hi,

Blackouts are so, so scary.

I'm glad you are here and working on your recovery.

OCDDan

Ouch! I'm familiar with the embarassment too.. I think you are finally there, this should do it.

cleareyes

I am SO sore today and it only reminds me over and over again how lucky I am to be here alive and walking. My head knocked a hole in the wall and my neck is killing me. I can't bend over without pain in my butt. LOL My little girl asked me this morning "Why did you fall down the stairs...you made a bump in the wall". She wouldn't quit hugging me while she talked to me about it...I'm officially DONE!! Wake up call big time.

Thanks for all the support you guys.

doggonecarl

I hope for your sake and the sake of your family that is the case. What are you going to do different to make this the "last" time?

I found for me, shame worked great for the first three or four days. Then I had to draw on something else. What is the pillar of your recovery, Cleareyes.