Day 1.
Day 1.
Well... 27 Days and I fell off the wagon. Thing is I'm so dissappointed with myself.
Normally after I drink I get depressed, but this time... Idk, something is different. I know what I did wrong, and I know what to do differently this time. All I can do is pick myself back up.
I didn't even have a good time drinking Saturday, it was a total waste.
This is my last day 1. I'm tired of this.
Normally after I drink I get depressed, but this time... Idk, something is different. I know what I did wrong, and I know what to do differently this time. All I can do is pick myself back up.
I didn't even have a good time drinking Saturday, it was a total waste.
This is my last day 1. I'm tired of this.
You have got the right attitude, Programmer. Negativity - guilt and shame - will do nothing positive for you. Those 27 days weren't wasted - you still have them, and all of the experience you gained from them. Take care.
I do honestly think I learned from this. Letting my guard down for even a moment will result in a relapse.
I need to do more and think less. I ponder on my problem so much, but in a negative way. I need to turn around do the things I say I'm going to do.
I need to do more and think less. I ponder on my problem so much, but in a negative way. I need to turn around do the things I say I'm going to do.
I really don't know yet. Avoid skipping any meetings first of all, especially on a Saturday when I'm tempted to drink.
Other than that... I don't know. I have a lot of big life changes happening right now so drinking won't be possible for a while anyways.
EDIT: Not to say I'm going to slack on my recovery simply because I won't have time to drink in the near future. It will still be there when things slow down too... and as I've stated before, that's when I have the most trouble.
Other than that... I don't know. I have a lot of big life changes happening right now so drinking won't be possible for a while anyways.
EDIT: Not to say I'm going to slack on my recovery simply because I won't have time to drink in the near future. It will still be there when things slow down too... and as I've stated before, that's when I have the most trouble.
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