Healthyfood

Im seriously worried now. I had the longest relapse ever. No one knows about it, but you my friends who have the same addiction to alco.

SASA

maybe stop drinking just for today? I am sorry, I know how had it is. When I relapse it is always devastating, however you have to tell you that you need to stop now. so no matter what stop just for today.

mwstylee

I'm in the same boat. Tried to stop just for today but withdrawals were too much and I gave in...just went to the store for a bottle fo Stoli. Good luck to us both.

Healthyfood

I just drink and drink, I haven't got anyone to talk about it. All my friends, people I know are happy and have kids, I haven't got even a partner. I separated last year. I will be posting on this site a lot... Im very sad.

eJoshua

Glad to see you healthyfood.

I'm sorry that you are so sad. Hang in there, things will improve. Do you think you are ready to try putting the bottle down again?

freshstart57

How much of that sadness comes from inside that bottle? Leave it there, and make what sadness is left your own. That is your beginning, that is your new start. Make that commitment to you, you deserve what will come when you make that life affirming decision. Keep posting please, we care for each other around here.

Healthyfood

Almost all of my friends have families with babies. Not me. Why? Is that because Im an addict?

Dee74

I'm sorry to see your struggling healthyfood - you too mwstylee...

I think the only way to have change is to make change - it will be uncomfortable initally, it won't be fun...but anything's got to be better than the drinking life we lead, right?

There's a lot of support here - I hope you'll both use it.

D

Anna

Healthyfood, I'm so glad that you found us and yes, we do understand how painful and overwhelming this disease is.

1undone

I really understand! It makes it harder if you're alone! Any chance you can go into treatment ? If you're working have your doc put you on LOA for 30 days?? You need support and understanding not to mentio a doctors help. No one needs to know why you are on LOA

Elisabeth888

My sponsor tells me not to compare other peoples' outsides to my insides and it is so true. I still do it though and have to correct myself.

I try to shift my focus to myself. Sometimes you have to be selfish for your own survival.

Have you thought of trying an in-person support group? There are so many now. I could not do this without AA and the friends I have made there. The commonalities are striking at meetings.

Tosh

Husbands and babies won't make you happy. There's plenty of unhappy people that have both. In fact happiness isn't found in the external things in life; even rich people commit suicide.

Happiness really is internal. I found by my recovery from alcoholism in A.A. that we as human beings do have a spiritual dimension to our makeup, that if left unattended results in a miserable existence. Now, I'm not saying you've got to find 'God' or anything (I'm atheist), but I was connected to that spiritual dimension by going to A.A. and doing their spiritual program of recovery.

It really does treat the alcohol problem at the root and show you how to create the causes for happiness. Husbands and babies may then follow? Who knows eh?

Healthyfood

Thank you all for your posts. Im not sure now where to start. I don't want to be the one who quits forever. I want it to be under control. Rather than drinking everyday, enjoy it with friends at the party.
I drink only white wine. I think my first step is not to buy it. EVER. Switch to red which I hate. So but then I will not enjoy that much. What do you think?
Also how is it possible to find the root of the problem I have that makes me want to drink so much.

sissy07

Hi Healthyfood,

I don't mean to sound harsh, but you need to QUIT DRINKING ALCOHOL. A lot of us want to be normal drinkers, but we are not. The sooner you figure that out the better....it took me years, and those years were not fun.

stevie88

Welcome back healthyfood...I had wondered where you had got to....

Healthyfood

stevie88

How are you? Sober since 20.11 ? Well done you. I had massive relapse. Not sure how to restart.

stevie88

Yep,9 days sober here.....Just get back on the waggon healthy...If i can do it then you can...

Healthyfood

sissy07

The thought not to have it ever, makes me stressful. I could try one day at the time method. Some say it really helps.

Healthyfood

stevie88

9 days is very long. How are you feeling? I will choose my date soon. I like yours.

stevie88

I have to admit the first 2 days i didnt feel too good,but since then i have felt great every single day...My appetite has come back with a vengance which is good because whilst i was drinking i weighed 120 pounds and i am 5'10 tall so i was really underweight..In 9 days i have put on 10 pounds so i am really happy with that and im off to join a gym later this week so i can start pounding the weights....I have so much more energy now its amazing....Come on healthy,jump back on that waggon....Oh i forgot to say i also quit smoking on the same day.....