Back again
Back again
Been back drinking heavy since I was last here, been a few months. I am starting again day one. I will make it this time.
I just feel like hell and never have any energy anymore. Something has got to give.
Thanks for listening
I just feel like hell and never have any energy anymore. Something has got to give.
Thanks for listening
You're always welcome here.
I know I had many slips on the road to recovery. It, actualy, took me years of misery to finaly make it. But, I'm only making it one day at a time.
Maybe this time will be it for you. I sure hope so.
Best to you, and hope you feel better.
I know I had many slips on the road to recovery. It, actualy, took me years of misery to finaly make it. But, I'm only making it one day at a time.
Maybe this time will be it for you. I sure hope so.
Best to you, and hope you feel better.
I pulled a hard drunk Saturday night watching some college ball. My wife and I argued, I went out to the shop for a while to get away. When I came back in my 11 and 9 year old sons were just looking at me. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT FEELING, I am so done with needing something like alcohol.
A little history, my grandfather dies an alcoholic, my father is an alcoholic, And I my friends am an alcoholic.
The problem is I just dont know why. I have a great new job, half as much stress as I am used too. I make good money. I have a great family, but yet I feel I need to get hammered, usually 12 to 15 beers every night. It seems like I plan my entire week around it, put things off so I can get home and pop a top at 5 oclock, and all day on weekends.
My family functions are centerdd around alcohol so I am dredding the holidays, i know that sounds horrible, but I will be stronger this time.
I also learned he last time I quit. I cant just have beer in moderation, I cant just drink one beer. If I get the taste it is on, I wont stop until I am stupid. My health is goind downhill too, I have gained a ton of weight, and I am tired all the time. I have ridden my mountain bike in months.
Sorry for taking up so much space and rambling, thanks for listening!!
A little history, my grandfather dies an alcoholic, my father is an alcoholic, And I my friends am an alcoholic.
The problem is I just dont know why. I have a great new job, half as much stress as I am used too. I make good money. I have a great family, but yet I feel I need to get hammered, usually 12 to 15 beers every night. It seems like I plan my entire week around it, put things off so I can get home and pop a top at 5 oclock, and all day on weekends.
My family functions are centerdd around alcohol so I am dredding the holidays, i know that sounds horrible, but I will be stronger this time.
I also learned he last time I quit. I cant just have beer in moderation, I cant just drink one beer. If I get the taste it is on, I wont stop until I am stupid. My health is goind downhill too, I have gained a ton of weight, and I am tired all the time. I have ridden my mountain bike in months.
Sorry for taking up so much space and rambling, thanks for listening!!
Glad you're back and yes please stop drinking. Your sons need you and even more you need to enjoy life more than you are now - do it for you - and your sons will benefit along with the rest of your family.
I know it sounds cliche' but one day at a time. Mt shop is full of projects I have been putting off here at home. My kids are on board, and very excited. The wife is understandably skeptical, I cant blame her, she has heard it before. I dont want to be my grandfather her dies in his mid 50's, Ill be 41 this coming year.
projects are good MP - but I think it takes more than keeping busy to stay sober.
It certainly took more for me - once I had downtime (and everyone has downtime) guess where my mind wandered?
Like others have said - give some thought to a recovery plan
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It certainly took more for me - once I had downtime (and everyone has downtime) guess where my mind wandered?
Like others have said - give some thought to a recovery plan
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