FML

Wow. Something crazy just happened.
OK quick background for those who don't know: I've been toying around with the idea of giving up alcohol. I drink more or less 2 times a week, get drunk about every 1.5-2 weeks average. Have been getting drunk since 15. Now 30yr old married, 2 children. I've felt like I have a problem for a while, but haven't commited to making a plan.I began thinking about getting serious with it this past week.
Well I have an opened bottle of wine here from last night when my parents were here. I've gone back and forth today over whether or not to have a glass. I finally decided I'd have a glass and do something productive at the same time. I decided to start cleaning out the dreaded garage! I've really been putting that one off.
Well I came across a box of random books, I have no idea where they came from, they aren't my husbands. There were some pregnancy books, sci fi books...and low and behold......ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS handbook. WTF?! WOW!
It kind of made me upset because I thought "DAMN! This is a sign. I really do have a problem." But another part of me is happy, because I have a struggle with my faith and it makes me feel like I'm being watched after.
Anyway, I had to share that. I'm not familiar with Alcoholics Anonymous and have never really considered reading it or getting involvedbut I guess this means I should.

Tigger41

That is a crazy sign - kind of like someone hitting you over the head kind of sign. Crazy

eJoshua

Sign or not, it's worth checking out AA if you never have before. You might actually like it *gasp*

Try reading the book and see what you think.

quitforme79

I'm a firm believer in signs..they are always there but sometimes we can not or choose not to see them. What happened to you today my dear, is a BIG one...so cool isn't it

Dee74

I think it's something you should follow up on for sure - it's definitely time to stop toying with the idea FML

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doggonecarl

Did you drink the wine?

I think you should take finding the AA book as a sign, a sign that maybe have a problem. Because you can't trust your mind on this. You minimize your problem, try to quit, have a drink, feel guilty, recommit to maybe not drinking and by the afternoon you surrender again to the urge to drink.

If the struggle isn't showing you that you have a problem, the fates may be trying to show you. Read the book; see if you can go 30 days without drinking.

Good luck.

sissy07

FML,

Thanks for the post - I loved reading it. Yeah, that sounds like a major sign to me. Do yourself a favor and regard it.