ontherightpath

Hey all! So, this is my 3rd attempt at quitting drinking all together. I am so sick and tired of the same thing happening all the time. I had a pretty good grasp on it, until this last weekend. I went out with everyone from work and had a great time, until i blacked out and was late for work on sat morning. I worked sat, came home and had a couple glasses of wine and went to bed. And then, of course, on sunday, I drank til i passed out again..... I was severly anxious that I acted a fool on friday, but no phone calls or people saying anything to me, so i guess all was well..... gosh, i HATE when that happens, and sadly I guess it needed to happen so that I could move forward. I feel solid about this. I am not going back to a 12 step program. I am using avrt. I am happy with this decision-- I can do this!!! I am actually looking forward to not being hungover or having to defend my stupid decisions. I already feel more at peace with myself....its absolutely amazing!!! So, here goes nothing!!! I will keep you all up to date on my journey!!! thanks for reading

lovinit41

please check in every day. There are alot of us starting off and good vibes going around right now.
My God, how I wont miss the ole belly flip when I wake up in horror wondering who I insulted, what I said, what I posted on fb, who I rang/texted/emailed!!

Tigger41

Hi ontherightpath. It's great ur making this choice. I'm using daily antabuse and it's great knowing I can't drink. I probably would have slipped. Knowing I can't is a great relief and a great tool for learning how to deal with not drinking.

Anything you need to do to stay sober

least

Welcome back! Glad you're giving sobriety another go.

ontherightpath

Thanks everyone! I am just sitting here trying to remember that looking forward is what I need to do. Why look backwards? Im not moving that way. I hate the feelings of shame and guilt. I know that I cant drink like my friends can. I dont know why I think its a good idea to go out with them on the weekends. I mean seriously. I dont get into any trouble or anything like that, I just over do it and black out. I know that its a dangerous game to play and I am just done playing it.I want to feel good, I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not feel pity for the person staring back at me. I checked out the crash course on avrt. I do believe that this will be my saving grace. I attended meetings in the past, and I just kinda felt like the group (aa) for me anyways, never let me put the drink down. I felt like I had to be there. I just didnt like it. This time, I dont have people harping on me, I dont have people judging my actions, I dont have people telling me anything I dont want to hear. Instead, I am making this choice of sobriety on my own will. I will do anything to stay sober. I am making a promise to myself that I will never drink again. I cant do it. Its not safe. Its not healthy. Its just not for me anymore!! I am confident in my decision. I have not really discussed these things with my dh. He just started a new job and is traveling alot. I know that seems like a scary situation, but for me, I like it, because I have to stay in line when he is gone. So i do not drink as it is, with him away. I am excited. And I cant honestly say that in the past when i have tried, that i felt this way. So, im goin with it.

LookingForNewMe

You sound like you are progressing very well with your thinking about your situation.

I hope you will enjoy building a new sober life and wish you all the best!