What I learned this year
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Midwest
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What I learned this year
I am shortly coming up on one year clean and sober and this time it is different.
I have been in and out of meetings now for 25 yrs and never got this important point.
I would hear people around the tables say stuff like "let go and let God" give over the control, etc, etc.
Well, what I have learned this year is that I was a very controlling and manipulative person. I would be so sickeningly sweet while I was trying to control people to do things MY WAY.
God started showing me last December while watching a Christmas play that I too was a very controlling person. The plot was about a very controlling person.
ME! haha
Since giving over control I feel sooo free! I let people do what they want, I don't try to make people see things my way and try to make them believe what I believe anymore.
See God had to open my eyes. No one else convinced me of anything, so therefore I see that as a gift. Not everyone is given this gift at the same time.
I used to be very upset when I could not control people, even if it was convictions and what I believed to be the right way!!
Therefore I am able to allow people to take their own paths today.....
I am walking in freedom now! I also am able to see why my husband has always been a person who is very much a peace....he doesn't control others!!
Lily
I have been in and out of meetings now for 25 yrs and never got this important point.
I would hear people around the tables say stuff like "let go and let God" give over the control, etc, etc.
Well, what I have learned this year is that I was a very controlling and manipulative person. I would be so sickeningly sweet while I was trying to control people to do things MY WAY.
God started showing me last December while watching a Christmas play that I too was a very controlling person. The plot was about a very controlling person.
ME! haha Since giving over control I feel sooo free! I let people do what they want, I don't try to make people see things my way and try to make them believe what I believe anymore.
See God had to open my eyes. No one else convinced me of anything, so therefore I see that as a gift. Not everyone is given this gift at the same time.
I used to be very upset when I could not control people, even if it was convictions and what I believed to be the right way!!
Therefore I am able to allow people to take their own paths today.....
I am walking in freedom now! I also am able to see why my husband has always been a person who is very much a peace....he doesn't control others!!
Lily
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