soberred

I was sitting across the table a couple of days ago having lunch with a co-worker. I noticed that she could barely pick up her fork because she was trembling so bad. She commented that she was so hungry and her blood sugar was really low causing the shakes. Oh my goodness. I used that excuse so many times.I may have believed her had I not been the same. She had the tell tale puffy eyes, dry skin, busted red blood vessels on her face. She told me she was 60 years old but I would have pegged her for 75-80. My heart was so sad for her. I hope she gets help. She knows she has a problem. Most of us do. I am glad I took that first step several times. I am happy to be sober

Hevyn

I'm glad you are too, soberred.

I remember having lunch with my boss & not being able to lift my soup spoon to my mouth. I used the "I haven't eaten in awhile" excuse too. (He knew, though.) I also remember being asked to sign a birthday card at work, and couldn't do it. Pretended I had a cramp. I'm so thankful those days are over.

soberred

Who would ever believe signing a birthday card or eating lunch would be such an impossible task. What a horrible feeling that was.

eJoshua

It's so easy to forget those things... I remember trying to type at work was a nightmare.

soberred

I can't forget them Josh. It's important for me to remember. It strengthens my resolve. I have work on this earth left to do.

Mark80

I remember going for lunch with collegues and being the only one not eating and having to use both hands to steady a glass of juice into my mouth without shaking it everywhere. Typing was a problem for me too, just hovering my hands over the keyboard was impossible.

soberred

I am sure they noticed. Congrats on 2 months.

MsJax

I look back at paperwork and checks I'd written. God, what a mess.

soberred

Yep. Like a 2 year old wrote it right?

Hevyn

The scary thing is, at the time I don't remember being all that embarassed or concerned. Just rolled with it - justified it somehow?

soberred

Oh I was embarrassed. I used to pray that no one would notice. Such shame

FoundmySelf

I always thought I was so good at hiding it.. when in reality I was hiding it from no one!!

I am on m 40th day of sobriety, but I already know that I don't want to go back

soberred

Great job. Keep it up

Taking5

Thanks for posting this. Sometimes we need reminders on how bad it was so we don't pick up today.

Fandy

i used to get to my office, slam the door and not come out until lunch time...I used the old "too much espresso" to give my shakey hands an excuse.....i could not look at myself in the mirror of the ladies room.

least

I remember the shakes so well. Couldn't sit still for a minute and feeling so dizzy and sick. So glad those days are gone, never to return.

grateful101010

Weird, I never had the shakes. Had bloodshot eyes, puffy face, yawning from lack of healthy sleep, all the other pleasantries. Coming on SR every night and reading the horror stories is a very key factor in keeping my sobriety. I've shared some of my stories, but one day I need to make a list of every bad thing that my drinking alcohol caused in my life. Then I'll post it here.

It would probably scare the pants off me to do it, and read it, but hopefully it might help keep others here sober for that day.

Itchy

I could barely hold my first cup of coffee first thing I was shaking and hacking so badly I would dry heave.

But I had to hold it even if I spilled some hot coffee on me. You see it had two shots of scotch in the first cup and one in the next three mugs. By then it would be 9 am and I would be steady and ready to switch to beer for the rest of the day, then wine in the late afternoon/evening, and some mixed drinks to change it up later.

Whew! I need to go to bed, just the memory exhausts me!

instant

I was high functioning as well, now I can't read what I wrote back then !!

sugarbear1

Did you carry the message there's a solution to her?