Reasons
This is a hard one for me too.
For the last 4 months I'd actually been training for a marathon so it was easy/convenient to use that excuse. But, I ran my marathon on the 16th, so now I don't have that excuse anymore.
So now, I think my approach is going to be...I quit drinking for the 4 months that I trained for the marathon and I just felt so good that I'm going to keep going with it. I'm sleeping better, feeling better, I've lost 15 pounds etc. - and I don't miss it.
I do think it is important to have an element of truth to it as well.
For anyone close to me I've basically said that I thought I was drinking too much and wanted to take a break. I think that hint of truth is important for you and for your friends - if they're true friends they'll pick up on the meaning and give you all the space you need.
For the last 4 months I'd actually been training for a marathon so it was easy/convenient to use that excuse. But, I ran my marathon on the 16th, so now I don't have that excuse anymore.
So now, I think my approach is going to be...I quit drinking for the 4 months that I trained for the marathon and I just felt so good that I'm going to keep going with it. I'm sleeping better, feeling better, I've lost 15 pounds etc. - and I don't miss it.
I do think it is important to have an element of truth to it as well.
For anyone close to me I've basically said that I thought I was drinking too much and wanted to take a break. I think that hint of truth is important for you and for your friends - if they're true friends they'll pick up on the meaning and give you all the space you need.
My parents have seen me falling over drunk too many times to mention - but the edict has come down from on high: I.am. not. an. alcoholic.
We don't have that problem on my side of the family lol.
My friends had picked me up and carried me to the the ER lots of times.
A lot of them didn't see the need for me to quit either - they didn't want to kill the buzz with the A word, they didn't want to break up the gang, and they didn't want to look at their own drinking habits.
Like it or not, alcoholism still carries a stigma for a lot of people - if it didn't, being honest about our drinking or why we're not drinking now wouldn't be a problem.
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We don't have that problem on my side of the family lol.
My friends had picked me up and carried me to the the ER lots of times.
A lot of them didn't see the need for me to quit either - they didn't want to kill the buzz with the A word, they didn't want to break up the gang, and they didn't want to look at their own drinking habits.
Like it or not, alcoholism still carries a stigma for a lot of people - if it didn't, being honest about our drinking or why we're not drinking now wouldn't be a problem.
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I have to tell you I'm doing really well Pigtails and this is the one thing that keeps going over and over in my mind. What am i going to say in this situation:
I'm hosting a function at my bosses house on November 23rd and the only one that knows I don't drink anymore is my boss...best boss! But, the others seem to think I am a connousieur of food & wine and have know idea about my battle. I just know, that more than one of them is going to say "Deb, where's your drink"?...
I don't want to pretend. I could say, "oh I've got one" and hold up a soda with lime. My other option (and I believe this will avoid future situations, because there will be more hosting nights) is to simply say "Alcohol actually makes me sick, so I don't drink anymore"...it's the truth!! I want to just keep it simple...might sound silly, but I've been practicing saying it. But it's still giving me some anxiety. Funny thing though...I have NO desire to drink - and I'm thankful that, that is not my worry. Just had to share that...thanks guys for listening
I'm hosting a function at my bosses house on November 23rd and the only one that knows I don't drink anymore is my boss...best boss! But, the others seem to think I am a connousieur of food & wine and have know idea about my battle. I just know, that more than one of them is going to say "Deb, where's your drink"?...
I don't want to pretend. I could say, "oh I've got one" and hold up a soda with lime. My other option (and I believe this will avoid future situations, because there will be more hosting nights) is to simply say "Alcohol actually makes me sick, so I don't drink anymore"...it's the truth!! I want to just keep it simple...might sound silly, but I've been practicing saying it. But it's still giving me some anxiety. Funny thing though...I have NO desire to drink - and I'm thankful that, that is not my worry. Just had to share that...thanks guys for listening
I totally agree with Dee.
I say, 'No, thanks', and won't give any reason. It's no one's business, but mine.
I have to say, I would be very uncomfortable spending time with people who were drinking and encouraging me to drink, too.
I say, 'No, thanks', and won't give any reason. It's no one's business, but mine.
I have to say, I would be very uncomfortable spending time with people who were drinking and encouraging me to drink, too.
With my good friend, I guess I will have to be more forceful with her too and explain that it makes me uncomfortable when it comes to her drinking comments. That I am really abstaining although it's hard for me and so to please not tempt me. I think she would understand. I guess it all comes down to me asserting myself. If they still push me then they are are not good friends, but, I think they are, so I hope this can be worked through because I don't want to not be around them. The rest of my "friends"... if they are true friends they don't pressure me to drink, and, if they do, then, I don't have much of a problem cutting them off like the "friends" I already have cut off, for revolving their lives around drinking and expecting me to do the same if I'm to be their friend.
Or, they just don't understand. I have one very close friend who is not an alcoholic/problem drinker and I have been spending most of my "friendship" time with her lately for that reason. But even she doesn't understand why I won't join her in a beer for dinner. I finally broke down and told her I have an issue with my drinking... which I had only admitted to my sister and boyfriend prior to that (and SR and AA), and she was adament that I did NOT have a problem drinking. She said I was just going through a phase, that I shouldn't go out all the time but that having one or two isn't bad, and that she's seen me just have one or two many times before (yeah, around HER). I didn't feel comfortable getting into all the details with her but I did give her examples of things I did while drunk that I regret, reasons I didn't want to drink, and she still kept protesting that I don't have a problem, and that I shouldn't be so hard on myself.
At the time (during my first run at sobriety a few months ago) I believed her, because I DO have the tendency to be too hard on myself. But after repeating many of the same mistakes I realize that I am the best person to know if I have a problem
At the time (during my first run at sobriety a few months ago) I believed her, because I DO have the tendency to be too hard on myself. But after repeating many of the same mistakes I realize that I am the best person to know if I have a problem
So, this was what my BFF said to me when I told her I was going to stop drinking. We were emailing about something else and I told her I was going to stop drinking after our Saturday night bender. The exchange is actually long, but I'm just including a snippet of one of her emails.
Caardio's BFF:
"Post binge regret is the worst kind of regret there is. I hear you on not liking some of the patterns you are seeing, but I think you may be mixing in a bunch of self-flagellation too which might be skewing things a bit. I think it is worth separating out the ick factor of the incidents that are making you feel particularly bad from the larger habits that are bothering you. And even AA doesn't say to remember you can never ever drink again -- they say to take it one day at a time.
If you decide not to drink again, I'll support you 100%. My gut tells me it is not impossible, but it is extreme -- then again, people do what they gotta do and it is nobody else's place to judge. I would just caution that if you set up yourself mentally for a huge, daunting task and then fail to follow through, you might end up feeling even worse.
For what its worth, you didn't appear to me to be a mess. You were just the way you are when you tie one on -- chatty. As was I, totally oversharing with XXX. Yeesh!
You've been so disciplined with exercise. I wonder if you couldn't use some of the lessons you have learned from making those lifestyle and pattern changes to make some changes in this part of your routine.
XO
Sent from my iPhone"
She's a normal drinker. I can see how I might have said that to someone many years ago.
I have to tell you I'm doing really well Pigtails and this is the one thing that keeps going over and over in my mind. What am i going to say in this situation:
I'm hosting a function at my bosses house on November 23rd and the only one that knows I don't drink anymore is my boss...best boss! But, the others seem to think I am a connousieur of food & wine and have know idea about my battle. I just know, that more than one of them is going to say "Deb, where's your drink"?...
I don't want to pretend. I could say, "oh I've got one" and hold up a soda with lime. My other option (and I believe this will avoid future situations, because there will be more hosting nights) is to simply say "Alcohol actually makes me sick, so I don't drink anymore"...it's the truth!! I want to just keep it simple...might sound silly, but I've been practicing saying it. But it's still giving me some anxiety. Funny thing though...I have NO desire to drink - and I'm thankful that, that is not my worry. Just had to share that...thanks guys for listening
I'm hosting a function at my bosses house on November 23rd and the only one that knows I don't drink anymore is my boss...best boss! But, the others seem to think I am a connousieur of food & wine and have know idea about my battle. I just know, that more than one of them is going to say "Deb, where's your drink"?...
I don't want to pretend. I could say, "oh I've got one" and hold up a soda with lime. My other option (and I believe this will avoid future situations, because there will be more hosting nights) is to simply say "Alcohol actually makes me sick, so I don't drink anymore"...it's the truth!! I want to just keep it simple...might sound silly, but I've been practicing saying it. But it's still giving me some anxiety. Funny thing though...I have NO desire to drink - and I'm thankful that, that is not my worry. Just had to share that...thanks guys for listening
One of my former friends/drinking buddies could spot when someone was "faking" drinking! She said plain soda water, tonic, grenadine, cranberry juice, with "twists" are common ways people pretend to be drinking when they're not. She could tell by the color of the liquid in the glasses who's weren't watered down with alcohol. And she would give them a hard time for it. I asked her how she knew and she said "I'm an alcoholic and I can tell when people are trying not to act like they're alcoholics and it doesn't fly around me," and laughed.
When I think about it, it's really sad. She knows she's an alcoholic yet makes light of it and keeps drinking. When she is really down/depressed, she admits it, but never addresses what she needs to do to change it (as far as I know). I was like that for a few months and I don't want to be like that anymore. Now that I have this knowledge, I can't just "forget" about it or laugh about it... I have to face it. I hope she gets better but she is one of the people I had to cut off, actually quite awhile ago when I was trying not to drink "as much" and I realized that I always drank tons with her and that she was only about trying to go out and get drunk as much as possible. :-(
I think that saying alcohol makes you sick is a good idea. Good luck at your event, I'm sure you will be a great host... even better sober!
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I just tell friends Im done with alcohol. I choose not to drink anymore. It sounds simple because it is. Your focusing too much on other peoples opinions, or what you think they might think, your over thinking it, just enjoy yourself. All that matters is you.
That sounds familiar. My BFF is very supportive, but she's a normal drinker, and I think she thinks I'm over-reacting. Still, she's supportive. Ultimately she doesn't care if I drink or not. And, ironically, she has another very good friend who absolutely is an alcoholic so she's seen it up-close and personal. I think that I'm an "alcoholic lite" so to speak. I'm on the path, but somehow I'm stopping myself before it gets really, really bad.
So, this was what my BFF said to me when I told her I was going to stop drinking. We were emailing about something else and I told her I was going to stop drinking after our Saturday night bender. The exchange is actually long, but I'm just including a snippet of one of her emails.
Caardio's BFF:
"Post binge regret is the worst kind of regret there is. I hear you on not liking some of the patterns you are seeing, but I think you may be mixing in a bunch of self-flagellation too which might be skewing things a bit. I think it is worth separating out the ick factor of the incidents that are making you feel particularly bad from the larger habits that are bothering you. And even AA doesn't say to remember you can never ever drink again -- they say to take it one day at a time.
If you decide not to drink again, I'll support you 100%. My gut tells me it is not impossible, but it is extreme -- then again, people do what they gotta do and it is nobody else's place to judge. I would just caution that if you set up yourself mentally for a huge, daunting task and then fail to follow through, you might end up feeling even worse.
For what its worth, you didn't appear to me to be a mess. You were just the way you are when you tie one on -- chatty. As was I, totally oversharing with XXX. Yeesh!
You've been so disciplined with exercise. I wonder if you couldn't use some of the lessons you have learned from making those lifestyle and pattern changes to make some changes in this part of your routine.
XO
Sent from my iPhone"
She's a normal drinker. I can see how I might have said that to someone many years ago.
So, this was what my BFF said to me when I told her I was going to stop drinking. We were emailing about something else and I told her I was going to stop drinking after our Saturday night bender. The exchange is actually long, but I'm just including a snippet of one of her emails.
Caardio's BFF:
"Post binge regret is the worst kind of regret there is. I hear you on not liking some of the patterns you are seeing, but I think you may be mixing in a bunch of self-flagellation too which might be skewing things a bit. I think it is worth separating out the ick factor of the incidents that are making you feel particularly bad from the larger habits that are bothering you. And even AA doesn't say to remember you can never ever drink again -- they say to take it one day at a time.
If you decide not to drink again, I'll support you 100%. My gut tells me it is not impossible, but it is extreme -- then again, people do what they gotta do and it is nobody else's place to judge. I would just caution that if you set up yourself mentally for a huge, daunting task and then fail to follow through, you might end up feeling even worse.
For what its worth, you didn't appear to me to be a mess. You were just the way you are when you tie one on -- chatty. As was I, totally oversharing with XXX. Yeesh!
You've been so disciplined with exercise. I wonder if you couldn't use some of the lessons you have learned from making those lifestyle and pattern changes to make some changes in this part of your routine.
XO
Sent from my iPhone"
She's a normal drinker. I can see how I might have said that to someone many years ago.
So, did I stop early enough? No. I wasted years of my life drinking. But I don't want to waste anymore. I don't think that could be explained to someone who is a normal drinker. Alcohol doesn't do that to them. On the other hand, if any of my friends had said "I'm not going to drink," MY response would have been similar to your friend's response to you... which you said would have been your response a few years ago (yet, you're an alcoholic/problem drinker), so, what does that say? I'm not sure. I think a truly "normal" drinker wouldn't care. Or they would be supportive (as would a person who has come to see they had a problem drinking and took efforts to stop it). But I'm beginning to think that when our friends hear us say "I'm not drinking b/c it's not good for me," or something to that effect, and they STILL take it upon themselves to tell us to drink in moderation, maybe it means they're not such "normal" drinkers themselves? I'm really not sure. Maybe they don't want us to have the stigma associated with alcoholics... maybe they are uncomfortable associating with people who are alcoholics! Maybe they just like how things are and don't want anything to change. Maybe, like my friend, when they DO drink, for stress relief or celebrations, etc. (I'm honestly not quite sure how that works for "normal" drinkers... I don't understand the benefits of drinking alcohol that have to do with getting drunk, and all of those drawbacks associated with that), they know we are the person they can count on to drink with them, and they are sad that they won't have us to do that? Maybe EVERYONE worries about their drinking and uses us as their yardstick of "I'm not that bad", and if we're out of the picture, they'll think they are bad???
I don't know... my mind is all over the place tonight and I'm just positing some theories. But yes, your friend's email sums up what my friend was telling me. I don't understand why and I guess that's not important. I guess what's important is to know why I don't drink anymore, and not care what anyone else says. My life wasn't happy when I drank, and I'm hoping it will be much happier sober. It is already better, but I think I need a lot of time for my brain to adjust and to live in reality. If anyone understood that, I really don't think they would pressure me to drink or even give me reasons to moderate etc. Perhaps the issue is that normal drinkers don't understand how bad life is for alcoholics. And maybe some of us like you and I have the tendency to be extreme and hard on ourselves (part of our image issues, self-esteem?, double lives? I don't know), and they see THAT part of us without seeing the cause of it.
I am going to stop blabbing now, but thank you for sharing something I can relate to. I don't think it's too early to stop drinking if it has caused you negativity. I think it's the right time to start living a better life. So good for you.
Thanks Sparkydog. I do have a way of over-complicating things and worrying too much about everything, including what people think. I need to knock that off! I'm just trying to figure out how. I guess just doing it. Just saying, no thanks, I'm done drinking. I don't know why three words are so hard for me to say.
Another funny/sad thought - I was thinking, "Why can't I just relax and be myself?" Then I thought, "because MYSELF wants to DRINK!!!!" I hate that. I feel like I can't trust myself or go with my desires because I'm the one that got myself into this mess. :-/ If it were up to me I would just drink, read, write, and relax all day. How unrealistic is that?!?! So I try to tell myself that I truly want, deep down, to not drink and to grow up and live life like a responsible mature adult. Sometimes this feels true and sometimes it doesn't. But when I remind myself of all the bad things about drinking, I truly don't want to drink, so, that's a start... I can be true to that part of myself and let IT speak for me for once, instead of the side of me that wants to do jello shots until I'm floating in oblivion.
I'm 44 now. So, I've had several years of thinking "I'm drinking too much." I could have stopped two years ago but I thought that if I was able to stop for 4 months then I was fine. Doh.
Over the past few years a few people I know have stopped drinking. And this is while I've known that I have a problem. I didn't blink an eye at them while other people would badger them to drink. In fact, I felt very protective of them in those social situations (even while I, myself, still got drunk). I understood what they were up against and what they wanted to change. Interesting, right?
But my friend who is a normal drinker doesn't understand how you can't tell yourself that you're only going to have one drink and then not stick to that decision. Well, she does, sort of because the experiences of her other friend who is an alcoholic. Her friend explained to her that every single time she used to drink she'd decide that she was going to only have one drink. And then as soon as she had that one drink, she'd immediately change her mind. The only way she could not get plastered was to NOT drink at all.
BTW, I read an article that said alot of runners abuse alcohol. I'll have to find that article. I was stunned. And it also took away my last justification ("how can I be an alcoholic if I'm running a half marathon?")
Over the past few years a few people I know have stopped drinking. And this is while I've known that I have a problem. I didn't blink an eye at them while other people would badger them to drink. In fact, I felt very protective of them in those social situations (even while I, myself, still got drunk). I understood what they were up against and what they wanted to change. Interesting, right?
But my friend who is a normal drinker doesn't understand how you can't tell yourself that you're only going to have one drink and then not stick to that decision. Well, she does, sort of because the experiences of her other friend who is an alcoholic. Her friend explained to her that every single time she used to drink she'd decide that she was going to only have one drink. And then as soon as she had that one drink, she'd immediately change her mind. The only way she could not get plastered was to NOT drink at all.
BTW, I read an article that said alot of runners abuse alcohol. I'll have to find that article. I was stunned. And it also took away my last justification ("how can I be an alcoholic if I'm running a half marathon?")
One of the more humbling things that I have discovered in my sobriety is that people aren't nearly as interested in me and my choices as I used to think. Typically it's because they are too busy being concerned about what the world is thinking about them. And to be honest, how much time do you spend thinking about the more salacious details of other peoples lives? Sure, they might be somewhat interesting, but that lasts about two minutes. Which is about as much time you should commit to what others think of a healthy choice you have made for yourself.
However, there were a few people who were close to me (and one who was flat out nosey) - and I told them the truth: I quit drinking because I was getting the impression the tail was starting to wag the dog. There are more details than that, of course, but they don't add anything the others need to know.
I'm 44 now. So, I've had several years of thinking "I'm drinking too much." I could have stopped two years ago but I thought that if I was able to stop for 4 months then I was fine. Doh.
Over the past few years a few people I know have stopped drinking. And this is while I've known that I have a problem. I didn't blink an eye at them while other people would badger them to drink. In fact, I felt very protective of them in those social situations (even while I, myself, still got drunk). I understood what they were up against and what they wanted to change. Interesting, right?
But my friend who is a normal drinker doesn't understand how you can't tell yourself that you're only going to have one drink and then not stick to that decision. Well, she does, sort of because the experiences of her other friend who is an alcoholic. Her friend explained to her that every single time she used to drink she'd decide that she was going to only have one drink. And then as soon as she had that one drink, she'd immediately change her mind. The only way she could not get plastered was to NOT drink at all.
BTW, I read an article that said alot of runners abuse alcohol. I'll have to find that article. I was stunned. And it also took away my last justification ("how can I be an alcoholic if I'm running a half marathon?")
Over the past few years a few people I know have stopped drinking. And this is while I've known that I have a problem. I didn't blink an eye at them while other people would badger them to drink. In fact, I felt very protective of them in those social situations (even while I, myself, still got drunk). I understood what they were up against and what they wanted to change. Interesting, right?
But my friend who is a normal drinker doesn't understand how you can't tell yourself that you're only going to have one drink and then not stick to that decision. Well, she does, sort of because the experiences of her other friend who is an alcoholic. Her friend explained to her that every single time she used to drink she'd decide that she was going to only have one drink. And then as soon as she had that one drink, she'd immediately change her mind. The only way she could not get plastered was to NOT drink at all.
BTW, I read an article that said alot of runners abuse alcohol. I'll have to find that article. I was stunned. And it also took away my last justification ("how can I be an alcoholic if I'm running a half marathon?")
That's crazy about runners but I also wonder if people with extreme personalities who, say, push themselves hard, are also the ones who are all-or-nothing when it comes to drinking. This is pure speculation. I am no Olympian or anything close. I just know that people think it's crazy that I want to run so much... I guess it's not "normal." And my dad, who is addicted to running to the point of it being a bit absurd, also has drinking issues.
To be more precise, you care too much about what you think other people think of you.
One of the more humbling things that I have discovered in my sobriety is that people aren't nearly as interested in me and my choices as I used to think. Typically it's because they are too busy being concerned about what the world is thinking about them. And to be honest, how much time do you spend thinking about the more salacious details of other peoples lives? Sure, they might be somewhat interesting, but that lasts about two minutes. Which is about as much time you should commit to what others think of a healthy choice you have made for yourself.
However, there were a few people who were close to me (and one who was flat out nosey) - and I told them the truth: I quit drinking because I was getting the impression the tail was starting to wag the dog. There are more details than that, of course, but they don't add anything the others need to know.
One of the more humbling things that I have discovered in my sobriety is that people aren't nearly as interested in me and my choices as I used to think. Typically it's because they are too busy being concerned about what the world is thinking about them. And to be honest, how much time do you spend thinking about the more salacious details of other peoples lives? Sure, they might be somewhat interesting, but that lasts about two minutes. Which is about as much time you should commit to what others think of a healthy choice you have made for yourself.
However, there were a few people who were close to me (and one who was flat out nosey) - and I told them the truth: I quit drinking because I was getting the impression the tail was starting to wag the dog. There are more details than that, of course, but they don't add anything the others need to know.
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