aprilmae3375

im april and im addicted to meth amphetamine i spent alot of my addiction in and out of meth labs and ive been clean a year and 3 months now .....my sisters house just got busted for a running meth lab and im the only one who can go clean out her apt n get the family pictures and personal things she has there ....i went the day after she got busted and i lost my **** i started crying uncontrollably mostly because of the disaray of her apt shes normally very clean and it was naaaasty in there but everywhere i turned there was paraphanalia and there was even meth still there i left right away and locked it up right away grabbing up a few pictures im then went threw a lot of guilt because im her big sister and she was doing exactly what i used to do only never in my own home ....i havent went back n i think im afraid to but im not sure i didnt like the feelings i had while i was there but some of the things there are irreplacable n i know i have. to im gonna see if i can get a couple friends to go back with me i really did not think it was going to be so hard i dont understand why this is so hard to do.....omg what a mess this is making me

Carly2332

Don't feel bad. You're only human, and emotions come without any warning.

sugarbear1

I feel your pain. I like your idea of bringing friends. Are you working a program? I wish you a fast and thorough clean up without freaking out. Be well and stay stopped!

eJoshua

I'm sorry you are going through that.

I think your emotions are perfectly normal.

least

Welcome to the family.

BrianUtley

April,
Dont beat yourself up. You did the right thing by getting yourself out of there. Addicts and alcoholics like you and me need to make our sobriety a priority otherwise. If we dont stay sober then nothing else is going to be possible. Keep up the good work and keep following your instincts!

Anna

I'm sorry that you have to deal with this.

aprilmae3375

yep i work a great program thats why i havent been around my sister in a very long time and i think thats why im struggling with this kinda like i gave up on her but i know she wasnt gonna stop unless she was ready or someone or something made her