It's been 17 hours since my last drink. It was hard but I'm doing it. My recovery time from all the alcohol should not be a week to recovery but a few days withdraw is in my future.
I started to drink on Friday night. I was feeling really bad the last few days and couldn't take it anymore. I was depress and started to drink after the gym. I had a few to make me feel better which it didn't at all. I decided to go to the movies but couldn't stay because how depress i was. I went to the gas station to get 4 big cans. Put it in the bag and waited until my mom pick me up. I went home and started to drink the cans. Didn't help any and I wanted more. Went on craigslist and put an ad for looking for fun with alcohol. I couldn't not drive and the guy pick me up. We went to the gas station to be more alcohol. I pay for it. We went to my place but I didn't want to do anything with the guy and he kick me out of his car. I left my phone there which I lost and will not get back. I still have the alcohol. Got a 12 pack which lasted 12 hours. I had 1 other can at my place.
Once I was out of beer. I wanted to buy more. The problem was that I left my card with the guy. I would need to get a new one at the bank. But I wanted more alcohol. I use craigslist again and a new guy pick me up. It was late and couldn't buy anymore. He had some at his place and I stay there for a few hours. The guy was really tired at the time and he went to sleep. I got a taxi and went to my friends place. To keep drinking. I was last until 10pm when my friend wanted to go to a bar.
Went there for a few hours. I had 2 drinks. He was paying and could not drink more and he wanted to go home. Got some food and drove home. He went to bed and I wanted to drink. Got a new guy off craigslist and went to my place but couldn't drink there. So we got a hotel. We drank and got a 12 pack. I was not really in the mood to do anything and pass out. He use craigslist to get a different guy. I pass out and he left. I stay in the room for a few more hours until I call my friend again. To pick me up. My friend was upset because I was doing crazy things.
Went back to his place again. He got more beer. He could not until why I was drinking this way. Told him that I was nervous and wanted to drink my problems away. Which we all know it does not. Just trying to avoid the end. My friend told me to clean his place up if I wanted to drink. I did and I wanted to drink more when that was done. My friend got **** off and kick me out. It was raining at the time. I call my mom to pick me up. That was the end of everything. I got pick up around 4 or 5 oclock and went home. I took an antidepression pill to help me sleep and I would stop my drinking.
It started Friday night and ended on Tuesday morning. Don't know what to do anymore. I don't know why I go through life this away. I need help!!
Thanks for listening!!