happybear

I am amazed that just by attending an NA meeting today and listening I really feft feeling alot better than when I had just walked in. It may be b/c I hate my living conditions and it gives me a chance to leave the house and at meetings I hear other people share similar life problems and they deal with it. Also, I was amazed that today I didn't feel like using drugs. First time in 10 days. My first few days I absolutely hated my life and felt so stuck and yucky about myself. I couldn't find much hope and I resented anyone that seemed happy. And I wasn't receptive to hearing anything positive about my life from people that cared. Anyway, right now I don't feel great or wonderful but I do feel more calm and serene and and better capable of meeting lifes challenges.

Take care