Day 8 and counting!
Day 8 and counting!
Hello folks!
I made it through the weekend... a weekend I thought wouldn't be so hard to get through without a drink, boy was I wrong. I had a jammed packed few days... I had a wedding on Saturday that was over an hour away so I willingly accepted the DD roll for the evening. It was a wedding for my husbands co-worker, so thought since it wasn't close friends I would be able to breeze though the night not even wanting a drink. Seriously, Im an alcoholic what was I thinking? So many times I was asked if I wanted a drink, even was passed a shot at one point. For a split second I thought about it and quickly said no thank you... but oddly we were on the dance floor when it was passed to me so he didn't understand what I was saying. A girl I just met that night spoke up and said she is not drinking! I went to the bathroom soon after to "talk sense" to myself... "just get through tonight". I successfully walked away that night, driving us home safely and crawling into bed thankful for making it through!!
Those of you that don't know my story, I have attempted sobriety a few times... at one time being sober for over a year, having a weekend relapse due to a miscarriage but quickly jumping back on staying sober for almost another year. My husband (who doesn't consider I have a problem) supports my decisions but doesn't fully 'get it'. I can understand that considering it's been a roller coaster the last few years of me drinking to not drinking to drinking ... etc. I told him this past week that I wanted to abstain from alcohol, and this be for good. He told me "why don't you just limit it to once a week"... I wish it was that easy. So on Saturday at the wedding, even after explaining to him earlier in the week that I did not want to drink anymore. Someone asked why I wasn't drinking, I said I was the DD. He goes, "You can have a couple drinks". I didn't want to have this conversation with him again. How can I expect him to understand this disease when I don't even understand it myself? I haven't talked to him again about it... not sure exactly what to say. I can request he reads about alcoholism, but I've tried that before... he says he will and never does.
Sadly I didn't wake up refreshed like I hoped though. I went to bed at 1:45am, and my daughter (9 months) got up at 3am and 6am. This is rare, she usually sleeps through the night. I may not have been 'refreshed' but I sure was happy that I wasn't hungover and trying to take care of my baby!!
I'm still feeling tired and cranky though. In the past early recovery has been that way for me... I can not wait to get out of this stage and very excited to wake up refreshed and happy again!!!!
I made it through the weekend... a weekend I thought wouldn't be so hard to get through without a drink, boy was I wrong. I had a jammed packed few days... I had a wedding on Saturday that was over an hour away so I willingly accepted the DD roll for the evening. It was a wedding for my husbands co-worker, so thought since it wasn't close friends I would be able to breeze though the night not even wanting a drink. Seriously, Im an alcoholic what was I thinking? So many times I was asked if I wanted a drink, even was passed a shot at one point. For a split second I thought about it and quickly said no thank you... but oddly we were on the dance floor when it was passed to me so he didn't understand what I was saying. A girl I just met that night spoke up and said she is not drinking! I went to the bathroom soon after to "talk sense" to myself... "just get through tonight". I successfully walked away that night, driving us home safely and crawling into bed thankful for making it through!!
Those of you that don't know my story, I have attempted sobriety a few times... at one time being sober for over a year, having a weekend relapse due to a miscarriage but quickly jumping back on staying sober for almost another year. My husband (who doesn't consider I have a problem) supports my decisions but doesn't fully 'get it'. I can understand that considering it's been a roller coaster the last few years of me drinking to not drinking to drinking ... etc. I told him this past week that I wanted to abstain from alcohol, and this be for good. He told me "why don't you just limit it to once a week"... I wish it was that easy. So on Saturday at the wedding, even after explaining to him earlier in the week that I did not want to drink anymore. Someone asked why I wasn't drinking, I said I was the DD. He goes, "You can have a couple drinks". I didn't want to have this conversation with him again. How can I expect him to understand this disease when I don't even understand it myself? I haven't talked to him again about it... not sure exactly what to say. I can request he reads about alcoholism, but I've tried that before... he says he will and never does.
Sadly I didn't wake up refreshed like I hoped though. I went to bed at 1:45am, and my daughter (9 months) got up at 3am and 6am. This is rare, she usually sleeps through the night. I may not have been 'refreshed' but I sure was happy that I wasn't hungover and trying to take care of my baby!!
I'm still feeling tired and cranky though. In the past early recovery has been that way for me... I can not wait to get out of this stage and very excited to wake up refreshed and happy again!!!!
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Shanman 422- nice job making it through the wedding temptations! I don't really have any advice on your husband's feelings on you being an alcoholic so I'm sure someone may have something to add. It's totally the opposite with me, both my wife and I GET the fact that I am an alcoholic and one more drinking episode and our marriage will be done!
You hang in there!
You hang in there!
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